I can't control anything that i am feeling, and because it's the end of another month. The energy has shifted again...
Before, i felt loved and i enjoyed all of the energy that it gave me, and the creativity that flowed through me..
I responded by going to museums, painting, taking pictures, expressing myself through the visual image,and it made me grow spiritually, as a person and artist...
I became one with life and Art, and it was all flowing from above, like rain...
But i feel,for the first time, that i truly love my twin flame...
And it's engaging my heart and also my solar plexus...
I don't think it, i feel it...
It is coming from within my heart...
It is like if fear has been released and will continue to be removed over the next few weeks ,and the month of July. and more light gets generated .from those two chakras... Solar and heart...
It feels as if my flame has been lit, and i feel this little fire dancing in my heart, and it makes me smile...
And i realize that i have been carrying fear with me for a very long time, too long...
I am not sure what it is was, i was afraid of...
But i understand the power of love, the power it has, to heal and illuminate parts of my soul that remained in the dark.
And for me it took a long while...
I think Love wants to shine light, and expose all, what i didn't understand, and what hurt me...
I feel a deep sense of gratitude and i don't know why. and also i feel thankful and yet again i don't know why.
I feel like it is as if i have turned a corner, and i will always look for the truth to guide me..
I never will return to that place of darkness..
I will never have to live in that lie again...
No one is able to take this from me, the truth sets you free, why does it mean so much to me?
To have everything in transparency, seems to be essential to spiritual life...
you cannot lie to yourself or cheat your connection to Soul...
And it is at the center of every twin flame template...
The nucleus in a way...
My twin makes me understand the nature of Love, nothing is secretive or hidden...
I feel that i can trust him, and let go of fear and control.
This was hindering my love for him, i did not trust him...
I think i was trying too hard...
But i am not sure, what has changed exactly...
Perhaps, Fear and control are the two enemies of happiness...
How long have i lived with these energies ,unaware of their presence?
I have many questions, but i trust that life will unfold and give me answers.
On the spiritual path of the twin flame, i feel a certain sense of completion ,this month...
This is the feeling from doing the right thing, but it's coming from my twin.
Perhaps there were things he was afraid to do, but he built the courage to do them, and it benefits us both...
It's a very strange and beautiful connection...
Spirit has always guided me since the beginning, and sometimes i have lost patience, but finally it's like if something has sunk in...
I feel a sense of pride, that my twin is so kind, and also such a lover of Peace...
I think it reflects onto me, and onto my life also...
This month has brought many challenges, but also a lot of knowledge and acceptance of simple facts.
I have been healed, and also prevented from harm as well...
And so i feel this love for him , now so new as if it's the first love i have ever felt.
It feels like a shoot from a new branch, that i cannot yet understand....
But it's strong, but absolutely new, as if it just sprang out of the ground...
Suddenly i felt it, i love him simply for who he is...
And it is sort of liberating and wonderful...
I don't have to be someone i am not, being myself is like standing on a balanced scale.
I am on one side and he is on the other...
And i don't worry of how we will meet or if we will, i am letting everything unfold naturally. I am letting Spirit in charge..
I am not forcing anything, as if i am simply watching myself ...
Learning and growing from it, becoming more loving,, more understanding...
My twin makes me feel good about myself,, it's like if the mirror reflects not only what i want to see but the true picture ,without trying to hide anything..
Just like the true space between us...
Like clearing away dead leaves...
Everything is out to dry in the sun...
I feel that the spiritual bond with my twin evolves, and i can't really stop or control where it will go but i am not scared anymore...
I have gained trust in him, and our connection, something i didn't have before...
I trust him, and without trust, love is not possible, so i love him also...
But i have to ask, why does it feel so good, when it should hurt? It is like what is seen and unseen are two different things,
The Universe only responds to positivity and Order, and is indifferent to Chaos...
There is no drama...
The Universe never manifest it, only human beings and our mind are capable of it. we create fear and darkness without realizing it...
We end up living in those spheres that keeps us prisoners, without love we cannot experience freedom.
Perhaps this is why they say we create our own reality...
I have never seen anyone talk about twin flame Bliss, or a state of bliss when it comes to twin template. but this is where it leads me...
Not just the end of a suffering, or the lessening of pain, but in its place a small shoot., with strong roots, the beginning of Bliss...
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