The Gate...

As the month of February progresses, there is huge irritation form the masculine, and he is no longer tolerating interference.

There is a strong desire to protect the feminine, and make sure that she is the only one who is benefiting from his love.

Divisions, and cutting negative things, thoughts, and people out of your life, will start to become more apparent.

So feminine, keep things close to your chest when it comes to Union.
The masculine does not want to share you with the rest of the world...
Keep your intentions to yourself...

Whenever there is interference, there is conflict in some ways, to prove it.
The twin flame union does not like exposure...

It feels as if the masculine has made a decision, as if he has turned a corner, somehow.
And the feminine is at the mercy of this energy.
There is very little she can do, but to align herself with Love...

If there is conflicts and troubles, it is because the feminine is unable or unwilling to align herself with the twin flame mission.

There is huge amount of protection and generosity that is launching from the masculine in a very direct way. he is now feeling very sure about what he wants.
The feminine for once is lagging behind...
It is as if she is disbelieving her own truth, but she must have Faith.
Faith in Love...

She is in her own sphere, trying to grow and still struggling to deal with Ego.
There is a sense that motherhood is not a strong career choice for her, but she is wrong.
She is feeling this wonderful creativity. without really understanding that she is born to co-create, not simply create alone...

It could manifest in wanting to study or extend her knowledge in creative and spiritual fields, instead of tuning into her power of sexuality, and feminine energy.
She is not particularly feeling sensitive, loving, or sexy at the moment...
She needs to center herself around her Yoni, and co-creation...

The feminine is not aware of the masculine intention, because he is not actually communicating with her in a direct manner.
There is still much that must come to light...

The feminine has given so much, that now she is ready to receive.
She has to understand and accept that she has given enough.

The masculine wants to protect her and there is a real sense of children and family that comes with it . As if the masculine wants to make his divine feminine, his wife or partner.

He is putting her on a pedestal, which she deserves, he is putting her above all women.
The masculine has come to term with his own choices. he has chosen Love, he has chosen her..
He is conveying that all you need is Love...

That could mean an ending for the masculine, of attachments to other women, and an understanding that no one else will do...
His heart is very centered on his twin flame...

The Divine feminine experienced a glimpse into a life, where the divine masculine did not exist.
She did not like it, but she believed that there might not be a positive outcome...
She lost faith momentarily...

Even though she is going through huge changes, not until February does she realize that she is in love with the masculine, and he is in love with her...

It is as if she has been hit with a ton of bricks.
There is a realization that she is loved. but also the fact that the masculine is about to reveal to her, his true feelings...

Most of her fears came from not feeling enough...

The feminine has been alone without the masculine. she has been walking through the desert.
Now she is perceiving the lush gardens, ahead of her.
The ones that the masculine has planted for her.

The masculine is making a step towards her with a definite stance...
Because of the masculine energy not being patient. there will be a quickening in 2018.
Many twin flames will settle down, and meet in 2018.
There is a lot of masculine Passion around...

The feminine has been alone, but she may not have left herself vulnerable to feel alone.
It is as if she is grieving..the loss of her loneliness...
She is feeling cold, while the masculine is warming up...
There might be a sentiment that the feminine is being rushed...
But if it was left to her, nothing would progress....

Deep emotions are surfacing in the 4th body, the ethereal body. and we are moving very quickly to the spiritual body and Spirit where manifestation happens..
Be prepared feminine for when the masculine comes, it will be with full force.

The masculine will make that transition very fast and will expect the feminine to do the same.
They must meet in the 5th dimensional body, and then descend to the physical body.

The physical body is the 3rd body. after the emotional plane and the intellectual plane.

The Emotional body is the most primitive, where nothing is as it seem. It could be summarized as what glitters is not Gold. It represent pure Chaos and acting on instincts.
It is number 1.

The intellectual body seeks Truth through Knowledge and evaluation. it the one body that brings balance and order...
Order is ruled by the mind...
It is number 2.

The Physical body, is where truth manifest... It is number 3.

Only when we can we see, touch. and taste something, that we know it is real.
We must experience life in reality, in order to learn who we are.
It is called the Gate, with its five sense..

Sight, and sound being the most important... Here we have the eye of Horus... 

The Union will manifest  in the physical plane...
It is what i call. the level playing field...

We can ascend to the 4th and 5th body, through the Gate, to become enlightened, by the fire of Truth.

Twin flame tragedy....

The twin flame union, represents the Beacon, the divine light that illuminates, but this is only one side of the energy.

Since September till mid January, we came in contact with the dark side of the soul....

Negative energies from the masculine, was like an ink sack from an octopus. It polluted the fresh waters of the feminine.
It created great winds, and great waves in her life...
These events are real, and caused loss, anxiety, oppositions and tremendous stress..
The masculine energies were attacking the feminine...

It was critical,judgmental, threatening, aggressive, jealous and demanding.
The masculine is dealing with Control, learning and growing into the twin flame template...

He is not to blame, on the contrary, he has caused the twin to become closer..
The connection was tested, but it was a necessary step towards Union ...

Water rules over the emotions, and negativity can charge water. It becomes unclean, toxic and rancid.
The peace has been replaced with madness, instinct and suspicion.

The masculine is in reverse, litteraly upside down.
The energy is no longer warm, loving and supportive...
Jealousy was the initial trigger, but it has opened doors to violence, rage and anger.
The male energy needs to confront itself in the mirror, and make a decision...
It must choose love...

The feminine is facing the psychopath, the madman, the killer, the negative Archetypes of the male energy...
She is being hurt by him, but she is not a victim.

The feminine faced her low self esteem and her fears earlier, now she is facing her twin...
He has become her enemy...

Faced with the masculine darkest thoughts and emotions, she is not afraid, she is not running...
She is able to look at her twin, knowing that he could hurt her.
Yes, even kill her..
But she stand strong against the wind and the aggression...
Because of her faith in Love ....

She has made the decision to stay...

The trial has given birth to Trust, absolute Trust.
She was ready to die, for love.
The masculine has tested her resilience..
He can feel reassured that she will not leave his side..
For better, for worse, she will stay with him...

In a metaphysical terms, the feminine was prepared to die , and the masculine was prepared to kill..
In this inverted cycle of fear, he kills her and she is killed by him, because they are One..
It like a Greek tragedy, they did overcome great obstacles to be together...
In this drama and this madness, they are still One.

In the end, they both choose Love over Fear, because this too, must be a choice...
None of these scenarios will be played out in real life...
Only true love will come out of it.
It is as if twin flames need to filter any negative residues...
All what is left is pure love....

The feminine is gaining trust in herself and her own abilities, she is gaining strength...
The masculine has proven that he would do anything to be with her.
No longer can they doubt each other, the universe needs them both to be strong and steadfast.

Over the last 4 months, the twins were greatly tested, they had to endure tremendous trials...

He has affirmed that she is the One...
And she has come to Acceptance...
For the first time, she is able to accept she is valued and valuable...
She trust in herself and in his love...

Previously, the feminine was hesitant, she did not trust walking on the icy river...
She did not cross..
Even though the masculine was on the other side...

She did not trust him, did she believe she could be replaced? Yes...
This is where she felt unworthy...
She did not believe in her own abilities, or in herself...

Now emerging from the cocoon, the feminine is not yet in flight, but taking her first steps into her brand new skin..
Now both energies, have learned that combining masculine and feminine, means to be either in love or at War...
And the masculine brought great war to the feminine...
They need to know Peace...

The Universe is getting them ready for the next chapter...

A huff and a puff....

When it comes to our twin flame story...
Where are we now...

And it is a love story, but also a war machine..

Over the last four months, as Saturn and the Sun entered Capricorn, the masculine has been experiencing Jealousy...

He is like the wolf, who has been blowing hot air towards the feminine... He is huffing and puffing at her house, shaking her ground... Even though in reality he has nothing to fear...

Absolute love dictates that he is irreplaceable, she will always love him and only like everyone else...
He is her Soulmate...

So what happened?

The feminine simply became exhausted...
Problems in her self esteem surfaced, and it gave birth to internal conflicts.
The female energy always judge herself harshly, she has a tendency to compare herself to others.

Always asking, am i too fat/thin, how do i look?
Unknown to the masculine, the feminine energy flows always inwards, and low self worth, and doubts get trapped in the emotional body.

Faced with doubts and anxiety, the feminine gave up, not on the connection, but on herself.
The energy then looked elsewhere, for reassurance and flattery...
Especially, in platonic male friendships...

However this created a huge wave of negative emotions in the masculine...
Like a wolf, he filled himself with hot air, inflating his own ego, as he needs admiration, even if he won't admit it.

The masculine twin is filled with intense jealousy, growing in strength.
Eventually blowing a tornado towards the feminine...
This was not the reaction she anticipated...
The twin is challenging any other male energy now, that circulates around her.

He is affirming that he is the only one for her. He is asking absolute Faithfulness...
And he is manifesting what is known as the dark twin.

The masculine is scaring the feminine back into his arms.
He is both the wolf and the hunter.

Both fear and love, he is able to manifest both sides equally, and he is ready to scare his twin into realizing that she needs him.
His energy is forceful and demanding.
Yes, he is the knight, the protector and the shield but also the sword.
The masculine is ready to hurt the one he loves, and he does...

The feminine is left powerless like the 3 little pigs, and that is intentional, so that she runs towards the masculine, without protest.
She was only doubting whether she was worthy of love, this is no longer the case . She did not mean to harm him, but in her doubts, he read rejection...

The runner will often flee, or leave if they feel unworthy. They need to feel safe.
The masculine needs to be more patient, rather than reacting.
It is up to him to reassure and love her.
The feminine does not need to be scared into loving him. She already does, and always will.
They are soulmates...

There is no substitute for twin flames, they are One.

No other person can take their place. Each set of twin is unique.

By using Fear this way, the masculine has become the dark mirror twin.
Huffing on the female house, is no use when the door is already open.
Looking in reverse is what the masculine is projecting now, and he needs to understand her insecurities...
She will not leave him, or replace him...
In nature, males fight other masculine energies, and growl at their rivals, this is exactly what the twin is manifesting...
He is huffing and puffing at the feminine, you're mine...
Be warned, or else...

And the lessons have been learned. His jealousy has awaken the feminine.

She is running to the hunter, no longer preoccupied with her inner conflicts.
She is running scared to her twin's safe embrace...
All she longed for is, him and no one else....

For what is more scary than a Wolf?

Memories...

My husband protects me, and i am in the inner sanctum.

It is an old temple, a sacred space with a sacred stone..
On it , is written all the knowledge of the world...

In this book is written my name and my number...
All that exists has a number...

For everything is held together by a sound...
Everything has a vibration and a name that describes the thing....
God and even the Beast they call Satan...

My husband protects me, and guards the door, so none who can harm me may enter...

We are both guardians of a secret...
It is like the golden child, with the halo of golden light, that we must protect at all cost..

So is truth...

My husband erects walls around me, not to keep me in, but to keep the world out, and i may only venture outside on his commands and escorted by his army, and his 4 horses.
One at each corner...
North, South, East and West...

For he has seen the world and all the evils in it..

And if i knew of them, i would know pain and suffering, and such things must never come to pass...

I cannot bear witness with my eyes, for i will cease to see the kingdom of Heaven and all its treasures within...
It is a world filled with unimaginable beauty and laughter....

To step outside is forbidden...
I would be tainted by the world...

And i would not understand, and it would  greatly trouble my heart...

But when the people speak, they say the walls are there to keep me ignorant, and they speak in hushed voices and they deceive me.

They convince me that i am a prisoner, if i knew what my husband knows, i would be free like him, to do as i please...
My eyes would be open ...
I would be as his equal..

And the poison is dripping from their lips, and i listen and like a poisoned fruit, i eat of it...
For the first time, i hide something from my beloved...


But it is i ,who is being deceived by vicious tongues, for they know the world and the evils within.
They know it will swallow me whole, and i will know suffering....
It will cause my soul to die...

I do not see that i am being betrayed, for one wants to steal from me..

They want my golden throne, and all the riches on it...

So when my husband is asleep, i venture outside alone, and all see is pain and suffering..
And as foretold, it troubles my heart..

Many open mouths demanding to be fed, and the need of the hungry is never satisfied...

And so i would give my own clothes to the naked, and give all my food to the hungry, and sell all my possessions, to help the poor, and yet it is never enough...
And so i despair...

And all of the people in their suffering, are in a state unknown to me..
So much darkness in their mind and soul, it engulfs me...

But still i cannot feed their hearts with joy and wise words, because they only care about their bellies...

There is more to life than bread alone, but they only hunger for it...

The people they listen,when i speak, but they would listen to a madman if they bellies were filled.

And so i feed them, and feed them , until i cannot even feed myself, and so i too feel hunger...

Three meals a day, they hunger for, and their hands are always open , asking for more...
You cure their boils and sores, and they give thanks to their Gods for it...

I was a servant of Heaven, , how have i become a slave to the need of the world...
It is a bottomless pit...
How can you fall so low?

Where are the Gods, in such a place, who are they?

And finally, when your sacks are empty and your resources are gone, they will despise you, and throw stones at you, saying where is my next meal?
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And when you speak of the kingdom of Heaven  then, they will call you mad, and so you are what they say you are...
They will chase you away, and beat you....

 When your clothes have worn out and all your riches are sold, so then will you know the true meaning of loneliness...

There is no end to the tears you cry, for your eyes have witnessed what was forbidden...

And now there is nothing left, for the animals of the Earth have holes to go back to, but you do not have walls around you...

You have seen , there no light in darkness..
All there is pain, and suffering, and there is nothing  good, to learn ..

Was i beguiled by the snake who told me to go outside and see?
Was i betrayed?

One person cannot feed the world...

And so were the years of wanderings..

Asking many questions that do not need answers...
It is like wasting a great heart, for the sake of a clever mind
The mind is a faithful master...
and it exclaims, Eureka i can see...
and yet you are blind with both eyes....

The mind cannot explain what the heart already knows......
That there is no order in chaos...

Was i ever a seeker of truth, or did  i live in a  delusion ...
How can you explain what cannot be explained....

For evil has no reason to do evil..
He just does it,

what you have seen cannot be unseen...

So let Evil do evil , and know that there is love and only love is real, because love is good.

I walked in a world where there was no  love...
for none loved me...

My feet touched unholy ground, and still i kept this secret in my heart...

I saw the star shining in the night sky, and i walked towards it,...

I realized, that i am part of this light also...
Like the sun..

So now...
I run to the inner chamber ...
I long for the walls that my husband erected around me, long ago..
I long for the safety of this sacred space..

Those walls meant to protect me, cannot be demolished by time ,as they are made of solid Gold...
Like the temples of my ancestors..

I am the bird that longs to be in a cage, not as a prisoner, but to be protected,...

My cage keeps everything out...

I want to walk back to the inner chamber of the temple, and read form the sacred stone, once again...

There i will read from the book...

I will find the golden boy with the halo above his head...

This child that waits for me there..
It is my soul, intact that must return to me.

Protect the secret at all cost,
The light,  and the innocence..

The babe is free from sin, free from contamination, free from evil..
It is pure light, like a star that is shining in the night sky.

All beings were once a child, fed from their mother's breast...
Who could ever walk among sheep ,but a babe?

God was always the child and Saturn the opposite of it...

Satan, is the old serpent, for it is an old man, i tell you, full of deformities, and old age has not taught him anything.. for he devours his own children...

Satan stands for everything that is crooked. deformed and evil, never was a creature so ugly and monstrous. everything it touches, it corrupts instantly

 It empties all that is good...

It is not the dark side but the absence of all things, it is void of everything...

There is no light, it is absolute darkness...

The child is crowned with the sun, he is hope and divine joy.

Here is he Sun in the Tarot , but there is no card for Satan..
He is the adversary of all that is good...

Because there is nothing to learn from pain, suffering and darkness..

Do not be deceived by it, because it holds no truth...
The absence of truth is a lie...
and so Satan is a liar and a thief...

He consumes everything and his hunger for energy, is endless....
He is like the spider who lures the fly to the web, only to drink its blood..

He is a monster,  a beast full of deceit...

As we evolve through trials and tribulations of the wheel of life, and we learn, if there was to be a tarot card for Satan it would be black, all black, for there is nothing to learn from lies...

It is Absolute void...

A light even dim, means hope, there's no light in such a place..
Who could ever wish to live without light?

Even if i walked in Hell, i would have light coming from myself, like a star in the dark night, it would shine to light my way.

I am never truly lost, with the flame as my companion.

It is not in front of me, like the hermit, but within me..

I am made of that light, and it knows me..
whoever is of this light knows me also...
So is my twin flame..
There is a undefinable knowing....

Perhaps in that sense, i am also the star....
The cube is light, It is made of us and we are made of it....

For the flame of the candle lives within me...

Isn't it what the twin flame represents?

The flame and Love are the same exact thing..

Perhaps this is why we burn candles in a church
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It is an old tradition to signify light...

The masculine is the keeper of this flame..
Like a shepherd he must tend to innocence, and keep the wolves away..
He is the keeper of the woman...

Without the feminine,the masculine cannot see, she is the eye, and he is the shield..
He is the guardian of the inner flame...

Purity says;

I am in the world but nor part of it, because i do not join in its evil...
Love amplifies everything, heals everything.....
Love is the divine healer...


The presence of the masculine is expressed, as i am here, everything is alright,

I think the divine masculine is here to comfort the divine feminine...


Being away from love , is to damn yourself , away from his protection...

you can see that Love and Fear are at the root of the same energy...

But they are opposites

One is full, and one is empty..
One gives and one steals...


Love is light, and fear is the absence of this light...

This will bring me to speak about what they call psychic vampire or energy draining..

But that will be for next time....

The purple twin flame... Light of truth....

If i can get two sentences together in this blistering heat,  my reptilian brain is frying...

To find inspiration for today's post,  i would start by saying that we are flowing towards the Fool energy...

All through September there are major changes for the twin flame connection, and twin flames all over the world..

After all those months working from the Tarot card the Hermit, to the Magician, and then the Hangman,
We are evolving to the Fool energy in September,, and then for October, the Devil...
Things are about to get interesting...

Note that all those Tarot cards are singular.
There is only one figure on the cards and so within a twin flame manifestation., it can feel that the twins are very far apart...

Each are growing and learning apart...
For those who have communication with one another, they are still watching each other from afar...
Learning as they go along...

The hermit came into the realization of himself, felt his own spiritual potential, and last month the Hangman was all about feeling stuck, and having to look at things from a different angle...
There was a lot of frustration and some impatience..

Coming from this past month, the Fool is very much a card that says it is finally time to look outside yourself.
Looking out for answers as well...

It is also coming from the vibration of the Hangman, which is such a restrictive energy, Now is the time to experience joy, there is an amazing feeling of freedom, enthusiasm, renewed energy, and positivity..

It is like letting some fresh air into a stale room...

We feel happy again to get out there in the world ,and express something of ourselves after having been stuck for so long..

After such heavy stagnation, it feels as if a burden is lifted...
Things are moving forward again...

We felt very much that things were out of  our control, despite the fact that it was simply an illusion.
It felt very real...

This major Arcana is about taking chances,  but also it brings new projects and new adventures to our lives.

Even though the card's title is a fool, it is misleading, he is actually very clever, and see opportunity where others do not; he sees a path that no one would dare to thread. he is  ready to take calculated risks this month...

It can also mean travel, or physical movement.

We are moving forward, feeling refreshed and brand new, in a sense as we feel our troubles are behind us,

And we have learned much from the Hangman card, but we are happy and grateful to be able to experience movement again.

It is no longer time for reflection, but for action...

The fool is also the card of taking risk, because he represents the idealist, that  may at time lacks rationality..
And so he throws caution to the wind...
It also indicates someone who is not listening to good advice..

They are trusting their own intuition, and moving towards the Devil, it is fine...
But still use caution...

Moving towards, the devil card,  twin flames in reunion, i would say use protection if you know what i mean!

We are really feeling motivated, and are willing to experience new, and fresh things with the twin flame, and we are open to each other....

I have seen on the internet that some people are offering general twin flame readings, and i think these are very helpful and insightful, so i might start to do these monthly.

September might be an opportune month to start doing these , with the Fool energy in my sail...

It is a very important month personally as it will be one year since i became aware of my twin ,and that he became aware of me.

On some level , it is our anniversary, as we were dealing with much sadness, and realization of one another, a year ago...

Here is a word that sums up twin flames perfectly and that's sacredness..

Love is sacred, it is simply in the understanding that you are looking at the right person.

I have learned much about my twin, and about myself..

All trough September going into October, the energy of the major Arcana the Devil , will also be felt.

When it comes to twin flames ,we must always reverse both cards.

The two cards are then looking at each other, walking to one another...
Crossing each other's path.

The twins are in a way experiencing the same energies in different planes this month..

They may talk about each other, and feel a greater connection...
They are walking towards one another, so there is a feeling of purpose.

For some twin flames, it might also mean that they will be either talking , or planning to meet each other in the near future...

There is an intent that is present, and a lot of joy and excitement...

For i understand very clearly that the masculine is experiencing life in a a very different way than the feminine...
It is to be expected that the male and female twin, will not interpret things the same way...

What drives my beloved does not drive me, and that's the magic of the connection, i accept him how he is. It feels like a part of me, experiences what is missing from me.

Something that is missing in me, is present in him..
We are not the same.
We are part of the same soul. Half of the same energetical field.
This is how it is intended.

As a woman i am very much driven by my heart, and everything that i interpret comes from it,

It connects me to my soul.

I am more at ease with high vibrations, but not so much with lower energies such as the physical world.

The Empress does not characterizes me very well, but i must flow towards it,...

I think i am not conventional;. i am a deeply spiritual person and i resonate better with the High priestess...

She is the divine feminine and she has a book open on her lap. She values truth and knowledge above all things...
And her consort is not of flesh, but the moon.

But the moon hides many illusions...
Perhaps she hides behind her long robes for within herself the fire burns...
Is she really into truth, for she lies at the border of darkness or light?

There is matriarchal ambiguity,
She is the guardian of the feminine powers, but she is not mother...

Because it also mean she is sterile, unlike the Empress who is the mother, with a full belly...

She embodies the Nun, the servant of God, that lives only for Spirituality.

The feminine twin is driven by the Spirit and the breath, it is Cancer and the moon.

There is a paradox in the High Priestess, that she is cloaked, and the passion within her is controlled but visible..
Underneath a cold exterior there is light, and a glowing fire, shining.

The masculine twin is entirely different, because he is driven by masculine sexual energy. he is the Scorpio, and the energy of Pluto.
I am Cancer, the crab, and the Moon, in my twin flame energy...

The masculine is able to channel an energy that most people find difficult or frightening....
To control something that can control others...

The card the Devil is not the one who enslaves, but sets free,

He has the white sword of truth.
He is not the Devil of the Christian  faith, but a tool for understanding...

It is generally a difficult energy to manifest , but for some, it gives great strength and Power over obstacles.

 It symbolizes the spider, the snake and the Scorpion and it is always a masculine energy.
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They are animals who defend, and protect the innocent, and their venom is fire....

Fire is a dangerous and powerful energy...
Learn to master it, or be destroyed by it.
Temptation is represented in this card, as we must resist what we know is toxic or harmful to us...

There is also a tremendous energy linked to Pluto and the subconscious. it gives the individual amazing deep insights into things, They have a deep vibration, that can be very seductive.

It is the planet of mystery.after all.....

It gives the masculine twin, charisma, and a sexually charged Aura, but they need to channel this energy in a positive way.

Those people can seem one dimensional because the Soul is linked to the sexual organs, and so they value relationships and sexual encounters more than most.

They like Sex, and sexual energies as a way to relate to the world.
It is in a sense that they are easily seduced by people and things that are attractive to them...
They may seem volatile, but they are not superficial...
They may have an intense personal magnetism,,.

Within the twin connection there is an opportunity for the masculine, to feel very fulfilled sexually and physically.
The connection is dealing with feeling attractive, or being attracted to the magnetic field of the twin....

When they are together physically, they will both feel a sense of well being and renewed health,
Twin flame through exchange, enhance each other in all areas of life. They may appear younger than they are, and have more vitality than most people...

But most of all, the twin brings Peace and stability, something the masculine may have struggle with, all their lives.

They are the people who don't do well, being tied down, they are often manifesting selfish behaviors and are reproached for it...

They may try to make amends, by being overly generous with their money...
They are also people who either live out of a suitcase or have elaborate sets of cutlery or dining equipment...

They feel very unable to have stability, and even a stable surrounding do nothing to keep them grounded, despite the fact that they need meaning in their lives..

When it comes to partners, this male twin has felt very unfulfilled sexually and physically.

For them, everything goes through the physical and sensory experience. They  will often store memories, of physical events in their lives, rather than simply a memory in their mind...

They have probably have had to adapt over time, and tone down their passion because they can be seen as destructive by others.

The demand for physical passion if not properly channeled, can lead to self destructive behaviors regarding sex,,

Lust and late walks in dark alleys, even as projection in the mind, may lead to the person feeling that they suffer from a sex addiction.
But they do not, they simply have more fire energy than most..

The person may have been able to control their desires, through  a strong sense of morality.

But they are far away from being deprived, as the aspects of the individual is to seek knowledge and deep understanding...

Wherever in other people, the dark side enslaves the person , this individual is strong enough, to have channeled this energy.

It is in fact, a very beautiful purple flame of truth.

There is nothing deceitful this light, it is very misunderstood, and the Devil card is feared by most, through ignorance.

For here, it is nothing to do with fear or illusion, on the contrary, the devil energy is about cutting out what is false, and deceitful.

In fact through observation, the person is actually a seeker of truth.
They have a realism about life,because they may have learned first hand, about temptations of all kind.
They may have witnessed depravity in their lives, drug or alcohol abuse, of first hand addiction...
And been strong enough to withstand it..
The person has an unusually strong character...

Pluto makes the masculine intuitive, sensitive and a deep thinker...
But they are not relating to the emotional, like the feminine, their sensitivity is anchored in the Physical. They are not emotional as such, and not romantic in that sense...

They may have tremendous strength physically, and mentally.
And may have a incredibly strong sense of morality.

The color for that energy is black and purple.
Purple indicates a spiritual affinity or even a religious dimension ...

In a way, where most people fail, they succeed because they have tremendous control over the dark side.
They must be careful not to give in to low and base activities, as the sign suffers with connection to prostitution, sexually transmitted diseases, and sexual addiction.
It is up to the individual not to give in to  negative and destructive behaviors.
If they trust their moral compass, they can navigate those seas, where others would sink...

Twin flame energy balances that energy and heals traumas.
The masculine twin might feel unwanted at times, due to a lack of connectivity through physical contact.
And through the twin flame connection, they might experience great release, relief, and great freedom...

It is likely that the person is very tactile and may have lacked physical interaction, and tenderness in their previous relationships, they may have perceived their partners as cold, unresponsive, and unloving.

For this person, love is manifested through physical contact, and these are very important for them, They are very responsive to heat and cold, as well..

The main principle part of their health is the skin, genitals, hair, eyes and nails..
These are the main meridians in the body that are affected by change..

Without the twin flame in their life, the masculine twin feels unloved, unfulfilled in relationships through lack of communication and physical connection.
They may fall into despair feeling that no one really loves them..

They can have a sense of rejection of who they are, and so there will be a  tendency to hide certain traits of their personality.
In a sense they may appear cold themselves, detached and uncaring...
But it is a shell..

They are very sensitive to criticism ,and will mull over disapproving words for a long time...
They are use to dissimulate who they are...
And they fear reproach and criticism...
They may have felt shame in the past, and are sensitive to other's opinions of them...


These are not people who long for one stands, or will sleep with anyone..

On the contrary, Pluto gives the individual a sincere desire to connect through sex on a Spiritual level,

This is what drives the twin flame connection towards an end..

The masculine is fire and passion.

Having a sensitive Cancerian woman paired with a passionate masculine Scorpio, might not seem the perfect match, but this is where the aspects are placed , in the twin flame connection

And you cannot change these.

The masculine twin finds Peace, and the feminine twin finds Protection

Both find Love, within one another.

In fact they find in each other, what they need the most..
Acceptance..

The fire of the masculine, and the water of the feminine flows like a warm water...
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It is symbol of Hawaii, Iceland, where the volcanoes warm the flowing waters...

The divine energy between the twin is like a Geyser, bursting out of the ground, beautiful , powerful and mysterious.

There is an element of the mysticism, and magic in twin flame....

These are the primordial forces of creation.

The masculine forces the feminine to face truth, without layers, it asks the feminine to cut through the veils and reveal all.

Because of the devil energy we can see that, there are  many obstacles in the way of the twin,  if they do not honor the relationship between them

There is a divine connection, but it is not divine as we know it. but as a manifestation of pure love.

The divine here, is represented by the Devil card...

Because there is no deceit, the wings means absolute dedication to the truth.
Even though he is made of flesh, and the material plane,  he also is winged, as an Angel, it leads us to knowledge and divinity...

I must really insist that i am not talking here of the Christian Satan, or Lucifer in any way.
These figure are horrid and immoral, this is a completely different energy...
This is the Tarot...

The twins are bonded by a physical bond, that is unbreakable.
They are One immortal soul, into one mortal flesh during Union...

Control has very little to do with it, as when the twin embrace this powerful energy they will realize the power within them.

It is absolute, and it frees them from the mortal illusion...

By dealing with the actual problems and difficulties of  material life, and the need of the flesh itself, The twins are able to elevate themselves, and reach divine illumination. which is white light.

They must understand that they are One, two flesh into one,and One true soul...

Perhaps Spirit is also asking the twins to recognize what is trapping them...

There is a feeling that by reconnecting through union, there is a lessening of suffering.

Addictions of all sorts and connection to Death, darkness fear, and base human existence, is released and avoided...

The attachment to physical survival, is also released.

All there is is pure light surrounding the twins.

They can deeply understand  what enslaved them,
 But what held them back is no more, and what stood between them is no more.

The illusion is lifted, the veils that covered the high priestess are taken away now, as the twins are naked and vulnerable, standing side by side...
they are not shackled by the flesh but freed by it...

They are able to see the truth that all is love, and that only love can save you and free you, from the bonds of suffering.....

The message is that only when you confront your fears, and what holds you down, you free yourself from falsery and deceit...

Spirit is asking both twins to enter the cave of knowledge ,unafraid,

The body is the temple in which you pray,  love is the master, God is love, love is the truth...
and love is the key to your mortal chains...

There is no time, no lies or deceit; they are free, and through that freedom there is ultimately Peace...

The illusion that God was detached from the being is no longer true, there is a re-connection to Spirit,

There is absolute truth and clarity.

The sword of truth cuts through anything that is not love and releases pain, the twins have suffered.

The card shows the Devil holding his hand saying enough! Stop!...

The twin have suffered enough!

They must now be brought together, to heal what has hurt and wounded them

Apart from each other, they have learned a valued lesson and the price of disobedience..

They are returning to a state of innocence, for we are born naked into this world without possession or clothing

 The twin must now return to Oneness, and understand that they were always linked as One,

 As Spirit made man and woman as a whole. For the female joins to the male, to create life in flesh.

We are born from the flesh and yet within us lies dormant the manifestation of pure and divine light..

The twins must elevate from the many lessons they have learned. like a pyramid they must ascend to truth as One...

The figure stands above ground, as there no death, or pain. The cup which is red is filled with the blood of creation, there is life beyond death, which connects to the female womb and the blood of menstruation.

The Figure has both female and male part, as the woman and man are One in Soul, but also in Flesh.

The man is he powerful defender, and the women is the nurturer, and. both are being brought together to understand you are One with me...

And so the purple flame of the twin flame must shine to enlighten the darkness...

Love is the Savior...

My friend asked me the other day, what do you want out of life?

And i didn't know what to say, except that  i want to be happy obviously...
But that's very vague...

In fact, i feel that i don't want anything....

I am not living in expectations of my twin , even though i am working towards re connection to him..
I am not pining after it, and i don't think we should do that,

We wait for this supposedly magical reunion.,that everyone is talking about..
But i say, don't wait, just be in the moment...
If things must happen, they will...

For me , living in my truth feels like the most important.
It is not about being right or wrong then, it is speaking from a place of the heart , that cannot feel disappointed or hurt..

Something is either true, or it's not....
What you believe has nothing to do with it....
So put your trust in Truth...

Now with a little experience, i have realized that i am doing my part in the connection and that's all that seem to be asked of me.

I am learning and understanding that this relationship is a permanent one, that whatever difficulties you encounter in life, there is no leaving or closing the door behind you..

And that feels sort of reassuring, when there are so many fleeting moments in life.
The connection is on solid rock.

I also understand that we must not allow ourselves to fall into the trap of Drama.
In a way when we exaggerate things or make things bigger than what they really are , it's  a form of lie..
To deny something is really happening, is also a lie..

There are many instances in life where through fear and Ego we are tempted to lie, in that manner.
It's a form of protection, but we can't hide anything when it comes to divine love.
It's all about transparency...

Being in a twin flame has taught me a lot , about how damaging lying can be...
It is like an rotting apple that contaminates everything...
Nothing good comes out of it. and nothing ever will..

I have a French mother, and without criticizing her , she is always creating drama and gossiping about the whole neighborhood.
I find it very draining and pointless in a sense, to speak to Paul about Joe, and so on...
Who cares?
We do not get along, and we never see eye to eye...
We are so different...

I am bit like the black sheep, i am estranged from my family...
Their values are not my values, and over time, i have found best to avoid any contact altogether...

I don't like to use judgment on others, unless i have something useful to say..

For me being spiritual has nothing to do with perfection ,but about honesty.
Be honest with others, but be honest with yourself ,first...

Yes, at first,with the twin connection, there was a tendency on my part to think everything must be coming from me, and that this can't be true..
Thinking it was just my imagination...

 I felt angry, and i felt the need to deny anything was really taking place. I tried to rationalize it..

I think i felt nearly embarrassed and ashamed, perhaps i felt people would make fun of me if i started to speak truly about Spirit and the Divine within me.
I  thought people would think i am crazy, or mistaken...

I lacked confidence all my life to speak my truth.

I always was unable to share my beliefs with others, no one knows that i am a Clairvoyant, it is something like the 4th body energy, that i have dissimulated all my life...
When i read for people, i do it for free, and they are usually strangers...

I felt weird, and odd most of my life.... Being different felt something, that had to be hidden...
Even when i knew something bad was going to happen, it was hard to warn people of it...


Through the twin connection, it is giving the courage to simply be honest with who i am, and it feels  almost like a relief,, because there are so many light workers out there, all over the world..

And i don't feel so alone, talking about Spirit and reading the Tarot...

I feel free, to be who i am..

Also the expectation  i had on my twin have been released because it feels good to know, i only have to do half of the work, i am suppose to do my part, and that's all...

No one had put me in charge of our connection, i had put that burden  on myself, all on my own...


I was so clouded by doubts and fears at first, that i could not see clearly..

That's one thing that i know, when you are in lie, you cannot see anything, it is completely incompatible with the Psychic gift.

Truth is an incredibly powerful energy...

I have also come to terms that there is only one twin, and that you cannot change him...
He may grow of  his own, but there is no point exhausting yourself organizing the whole twin thing..

It does not work, the universe does not respond to control..
It only responds to love..

And yes, because our connection makes me lucky, there was the temptation to use the energy for personal gain..
And i have learned hat this won't work either, you cannot cheat the connection..

Couldn't i simply win at games of chance, and end up on a beach somewhere?
And would it fulfill my life?

I thought lying on a beach in the Maldives might not be so bad, after all...
But this is not only about me..
It's about me and my twin..

The only way to that beach, is holding hands with him...
There is two of you, selfishness is out of the question...

Is there any amount of things, i can buy before i run out of steam...
Do i need to own so may pairs of shoes?
That is the paradox of human existence,  You can have the perfect life with a closet full of designer clothes, and feel as empty as a bin...
It's where it ends up, in the bin or the recycling center, whatever you choose....
Nothing lasts forever..

Giving up all of your possession might seem far too extreme, but this new trend of minimalism, is asking a very good question..
Why do we buy so much stuff.?

Why are our houses filled with junk, and things we don't need?

I think i am guilty of being a part of this brainwashing.....

There is nothing more than i like than going shopping and spending money i don't have..
Retail therapy, they call it...

Louis Vuitton bag, and Chanel espadrilles are like the height of style, are they not?...

I knew someone who told me,, that buying Designer clothes was not her style, and that she thought it was so superfluous
Children were dying in Africa, for God's sake...

She had so much to say about it, and yet she owned 5 Plasma screens, all the latest kitchen gadgets, and a $60.000 Designer kitchen!!

But that's OK, all is well in the world, when yo have 4 ovens, 2 sinks, that you never use!!

We all trying to find a substitute for Love by buying so much shit.......

I agree that owning too much ,is  a destructive cycle, that never ends, but let's not be hypocrites, we all do it...

I don't know, if we should all adopt the Marie Kondo method, of folding your socks one way, and only keeping the thing that brings you joy...

But yes, Minimalism highlights one thing, spending money does not make us happy...

I am playing the Devil's advocate here, when i speak about shopping ,because i am into fashion blogging..

Yes! It definitely deals with the superficial aspects of life, trends, the latest bag, the latest pair of Louboutins shoes
I am definitely guilty of loving beautiful things in the shop window...

But then, i don't mind admitting that i come from a dark place, where i could barely walk, speak, and stand up...
For nearly 8 years, everyday of my life has been mostly spent in the dark, bedridden, sleeping without recovering any energy. If there was a hell, i was in it..

I could only eat with a plastic spoon,  and i ate mostly liquid and baby food.; i could not walk without help.
Even then ,i could only manage a few yards, once a month...

Being sick, is like being in a tunnel, where you lose all sense of time...

X-mas came and went, and to me it felt like a month had passed , when it all had been a year.

I could not listen to music, enjoy a film, or watch TV.
I only found comfort in sounds of nature, and you tube videos...
You tube was my world...

I never gave up, and i always held onto the belief that food was my salvation..

I saw a talk with David Wolfe and i heard testimonies of people who like me were sick, and had managed to heal themselves.completely..

And so i went whole hardheartedly into raw Organic food, despite the fact that i did not have much money, and it was costing an absolute fortune.! I made the sacrifices...

I thought i would heal, but i never did
I would get slightly better and then, relapse..
It was back to  nutritional shakes for me...
I was in a never ending battle with my body...
It was like living with the enemy...

I could not eat at some point, and i became so dehydrated that my weight fell at 6 stone, i was dying...

No one at the hospital could help me on a long term basis, i would always relapse and feel worse every time...

But i persevered with food, and i was adamant that it was the cure..

I tried every diet, and eliminated literally every food group...
In the end i was eating organic baby food, with a plastic spoon...

Nothing was working for me..

I am a firm believer of the power of the mind, and i thought you can conquer anything if you will it hard enough...

I always thought through meditation and sheer will, you can achieve anything..

An there were all the Gurus promising me great health and happiness, and all i saw was my health deteriorating...

I can say that during this time, i watched Rafael Nadal playing tennis, and i followed his matches avidly , because he believes that you must fight, and endure it all to win the match...
Somehow it made sense, and it gave me courage...

Seeing someone so talented, inspired me everyday to climb my own mountains...

It gave some rhythm and meaning to my dull life, and , it would start with the Australian Open and end with the Barclays championship at the O2 ...

My dream was to go to Wimbledon and see him play, and i can say i managed to go in 2011.

It was a great achievement for me, and despite not being able to stay the whole day, it was good. minus the journey there and back...
A painful nightmare...
But i kept on watching him on TV., obviously it never helped in any way, or healed me...

I am not asking for sympathy, but i just want to share what the twin flame experience really is about...
Because all along i was being told about Love and how it was the Key..
But for years i didn't understand, and i kept on holding on to food....

Kicking the habit has been hard,
Food to me is like the savior of all saviors..

I am addicted to healthy food, and it has become a passion, as well as an obsession.

There is nothing i like more than reading Organic,gluten free, on packets, i am also a food junkie...

There has been time where i thought i would become a nutritionist, and qualify as a consultant...

Watching David Wolfe on the internet was like my drug...
 And i though  yes, the Organic apple, let's worship the raw enzymes...

Coming from such a place, definitely gives me a different perspective on the twin flames connection as a whole..
And it also gives me a strange perspective on my twin...

It is not that i owe him something, it is that perhaps he might not understand that breathing everyday, is not something i take for granted...

I have a different view of life, in general...

For me,  his love is the Savior...

If you can't beat them...

Walking back with your reptilian tail, dragging behind you, feeling like all this bravado was all in vain.

All that confidence, thinking, leave it, i can do this on my own..,,
And then turning a moment later, realizing i need help!!!...

It's not that as a woman i am misjudging my own strength, it is that i must not try to overflow to the masculine side , or i will become unbalanced.....

When it comes to the twin flame template, the feminine is always taking on too much..,

We are not expected to carry the world on our shoulders...

I think it makes us resentful in the end anyway, if we feel we are not being supported.by the masculine..

Love is not about sacrifice, working towards Union, is not about exhausting yourself,  giving endlessly, all your love to one man, and getting nothing in return.

Actually ,when it comes to the feminine, love is not about giving at all, it is all about receiving...

Many women feel that they have to give everything to a man, and give up something of themselves in order to be with him.
This is wrong...

The woman complains that the man never says i love you, and she thinks that by giving him seemingly everything he needs, he will grow into loving her...

But that is not the truth....

A man is not a little boy, and men are not to be treated like children, we are not their mothers.


What can transcend is that the man may become complaisant and bored, or may feel trapped, while the woman  may becomes needy, and depleted in energy

She may also become resentful. feeling she is wasting her love on someone who does not reciprocate.her feelings..

The woman may try to please the man, and do his every whim, but she will never be getting love, out of it...
She will soon get tired of it....
Affection and care are well enough , but it is not Love...

In fact this has nothing to do with Love, it is to do with control....

Some women may even feel that by criticizing and affecting the masculine self esteem, she will make him feel less attractive to other women, and he will be less likely to leave her.


Why is this happening?
It is because the woman nurture the man like a child, and does not inspire him to become his true self.


Some space must remain for growth.....
We are all guilty to want to heal a man's heart, when in fact, we must inspire him to heal himself...

By receiving his love, we make him feel strong. He feels valued,.understood and wanted...

Through accepting who he truly is, we do not weaken him...

Acceptance means i accept you for who you are, without judgment...


When you look at nature it is a simple truth that the woman is like a flower,who must receive, and the man must give a part of himself, and be received...
It is an exchange....

Everything is about simplicity and common sense, if the woman tries to give, she will become exhausted and unbalanced...
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It is because the masculine longs to give, and the feminine longs to receive...

The feminine is not expected to do everything on her own, as union is about balance,
In Spirituality, we must  always consider the mutual aspect of the relationship.


That's the old dilemma of the feminine, she does not ask for help, but later complain she is not getting what she needs.


I truly believe we burden ourselves for no reason....


The masculine is here to support the feminine.
Always and forever...
Although she might feel alone at times, it is important to reset the definition of duality...


We live in a  modern world ,where the boundaries between male and female are blurring...

New terms such as fluid or transgender, are becoming part of out vocabulary...
Even though we all approach it with tolerance, i also ask myself. are we loosing our identities?.
Are we experiencing a gender crisis?

Because in fact, the  masculine and the feminine, energies, are fundamentally very different from one other..

One expands and one constricts, One is outward and active, one is inward and passive...

Becoming respected for who we are, is not an easy task...

If we follow the quintessential rules of traditional relationship, a woman is still very much a wife and a mother..
She is still seen as the nurturer...
When we look at Egyptian figurines of Isis feeding her son Horus, it is a simple act of Love..
A  mother feeding her young child...


The template of the 1950 housewife, is no longer viewed as viable for most, so as women we have been wounded...
Are we loosing our feminine power ?

If the feminist movement gave us a voice, it also spoke for us all, and i believe it came at  a price...
When women asked for equality. did they really get a fair deal?


Spiritually, the woman's equilibrium can be in jeopardy, if she tries to deny her femininity.


Because it is inward that lies her greatest strength.

To deny the womb is to deny the power of creation lying dormant within us.

We may be  as equals with men, but we are not expected to take on masculine roles.

Our whole constitution and metabolic rate is different than a man.. are we to deny the obvious truth?

Why would we wish to drive a tractor, or work on a building site?
What exactly are we trying to prove?

When we seek balance and harmony within ourselves. is it time to return to a state of innocence, and follow the simple flow of nature?

Perhaps more than ever we need to take on the guidance of the heart.

Love can shows us the gentle way, without having to force anything. We do need to forge our path ahead, but simply follow it...

All the doors that are left closed will remain so, if we try to use force.

Nothing can come from violence..as women we need to allow the masculine to take its place. and we must take ours, In a sense that without the balance of both the feminine and the masculine, there will be no order,

Love cannot blossom in Chaos..

Our greatest power is the ability to look within, and trust out intuition

We must act as part of a feminine energy, but allow the masculine to experience truth, in his own way for the man must take a step forward.

The divine masculine energy is the fire that burns bright, he is the scorpion, the snake and the spider, For the masculine power is about defense and the ability to heal...
She is the ice that must melt , in order to create the divine waters.

The feminine must never compete with the masculine ...

He is the reflection in the mirror of two halves and the reflection of herself..
But we must look through our hearts...

The most eye opening lesson, i have learned is that you cannot let go of your twin...

The twin flame connection resonates of absolute truth.

It is as if the actual universe only responds to that truth, and it manifests it very simply..

Be in the flow of the connection, and have a wonderful time with life, or turn yourself from it, and it will give you the most terrible time ...

This is how it was for me a first..
And i came to fear Spirit wrath, if i didn't follow Divine Love and live in truth...
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Now. i am starting to enjoy the feedback i get from Spirit, because i am starting to feel a sense of purpose, but it was not always so.....

The One feels very meaningful and purposeful ,especially in the context of  a relationship.
And i have come to accept that this is a journey....

It's sort of reassuring that the Universe works to bring the two side of the soul together.

All you need to do is surrender to that truth, and remember that the Universe does not make any mistakes..

Believing that i needed to make me the focus, of my life and resisting the connection, has brought me many challenges and difficulties, on the emotional and the material plane..
Honestly , it as brought me nothing but trouble.....

It is what you would categorize as bad luck...
Yes, when i walk away from the connection , i get  terrible luck.
Also watch out if you are telling lies even small, this connection does not allow it!

Money disappears, my car gets damaged, a project gets cancelled at the last minute, i buy something and it's broken, someone steals from me, you name it, i feel like i am under a terrible black cloud,..

On the contrary, when i make my beloved and our connection, the center of my life, everything flows properly, and i get good luck, events and surprises, serendipity you would call luck.
I win at games of chance, and i get amazing help from the universe...
But go against the flow.... And every time, troubles ahead...,
Everything is energy....

It is as if Spirit and the Universe are chastising me, and disciplining me like a naughty child.

It is like, you are being disobedient and it is exactly how it feels ; when i go against the twin flame energy, i am being rebellious...

And Spirit immediately taps me on the fingers, and lets me know., this is not going to happen...
 I have become almost fearful of  those manifestations...

I feel very much that Spirit is very active and very present, during this time of re connection.

Everything you live becomes about that...
It is not to learn exactly,  but more to reconnect to that state of divine state...

It means you have to rethink about the beloved, because it is not contained into what they do or what they look like..
 As the relationship with the twin evolves, it is mostly physical , and not through food, creativity or Art.

Twin flames do not relate this way..

Obviously there are many forms of communication between human beings in general, and Art is a way to share your views and expand your creativity but it is not purposeful or meaningful when it comes to twin flames.

It is like spending a lot of time and money on clothes, when the twin connection is about intimacy and honesty. It is about striping everything bare.

It is shedding the layers of your characters and taking everything off.

In order to become One with your twin,you cannot have secrets between the two, the communication is all about truth,and so as we are naked in flesh , we are also naked spiritually and emotionally.

There is no place for masks anymore, despite the fact that we need to be different people for others.
With the twin we are only ourselves, in our most intact energy of Love.

Oneness cannot happen without this truth.

The man and the woman, must be as One, open to each other, it is like a phone call from somewhere distant, it is a unique communication...

In  Divine Union, there is no interference between the twin. they are One, free from fear and opposition.

There is no more space between the two halves of the soul, there is no more space between them.
No one and nothing between this love.

This is why they say let no one put asunder what God has made whole, and brought together...

This is the promise of the freeing of the soul from its chains and  bonds.

It is not our flesh that imprisons us, but rather our inability to be in Love...

Love is freedom...