The purple twin flame... Light of truth....

If i can get two sentences together in this blistering heat,  my reptilian brain is frying...

To find inspiration for today's post,  i would start by saying that we are flowing towards the Fool energy...

All through September there are major changes for the twin flame connection, and twin flames all over the world..

After all those months working from the Tarot card the Hermit, to the Magician, and then the Hangman,
We are evolving to the Fool energy in September,, and then for October, the Devil...
Things are about to get interesting...

Note that all those Tarot cards are singular.
There is only one figure on the cards and so within a twin flame manifestation., it can feel that the twins are very far apart...

Each are growing and learning apart...
For those who have communication with one another, they are still watching each other from afar...
Learning as they go along...

The hermit came into the realization of himself, felt his own spiritual potential, and last month the Hangman was all about feeling stuck, and having to look at things from a different angle...
There was a lot of frustration and some impatience..

Coming from this past month, the Fool is very much a card that says it is finally time to look outside yourself.
Looking out for answers as well...

It is also coming from the vibration of the Hangman, which is such a restrictive energy, Now is the time to experience joy, there is an amazing feeling of freedom, enthusiasm, renewed energy, and positivity..

It is like letting some fresh air into a stale room...

We feel happy again to get out there in the world ,and express something of ourselves after having been stuck for so long..

After such heavy stagnation, it feels as if a burden is lifted...
Things are moving forward again...

We felt very much that things were out of  our control, despite the fact that it was simply an illusion.
It felt very real...

This major Arcana is about taking chances,  but also it brings new projects and new adventures to our lives.

Even though the card's title is a fool, it is misleading, he is actually very clever, and see opportunity where others do not; he sees a path that no one would dare to thread. he is  ready to take calculated risks this month...

It can also mean travel, or physical movement.

We are moving forward, feeling refreshed and brand new, in a sense as we feel our troubles are behind us,

And we have learned much from the Hangman card, but we are happy and grateful to be able to experience movement again.

It is no longer time for reflection, but for action...

The fool is also the card of taking risk, because he represents the idealist, that  may at time lacks rationality..
And so he throws caution to the wind...
It also indicates someone who is not listening to good advice..

They are trusting their own intuition, and moving towards the Devil, it is fine...
But still use caution...

Moving towards, the devil card,  twin flames in reunion, i would say use protection if you know what i mean!

We are really feeling motivated, and are willing to experience new, and fresh things with the twin flame, and we are open to each other....

I have seen on the internet that some people are offering general twin flame readings, and i think these are very helpful and insightful, so i might start to do these monthly.

September might be an opportune month to start doing these , with the Fool energy in my sail...

It is a very important month personally as it will be one year since i became aware of my twin ,and that he became aware of me.

On some level , it is our anniversary, as we were dealing with much sadness, and realization of one another, a year ago...

Here is a word that sums up twin flames perfectly and that's sacredness..

Love is sacred, it is simply in the understanding that you are looking at the right person.

I have learned much about my twin, and about myself..

All trough September going into October, the energy of the major Arcana the Devil , will also be felt.

When it comes to twin flames ,we must always reverse both cards.

The two cards are then looking at each other, walking to one another...
Crossing each other's path.

The twins are in a way experiencing the same energies in different planes this month..

They may talk about each other, and feel a greater connection...
They are walking towards one another, so there is a feeling of purpose.

For some twin flames, it might also mean that they will be either talking , or planning to meet each other in the near future...

There is an intent that is present, and a lot of joy and excitement...

For i understand very clearly that the masculine is experiencing life in a a very different way than the feminine...
It is to be expected that the male and female twin, will not interpret things the same way...

What drives my beloved does not drive me, and that's the magic of the connection, i accept him how he is. It feels like a part of me, experiences what is missing from me.

Something that is missing in me, is present in him..
We are not the same.
We are part of the same soul. Half of the same energetical field.
This is how it is intended.

As a woman i am very much driven by my heart, and everything that i interpret comes from it,

It connects me to my soul.

I am more at ease with high vibrations, but not so much with lower energies such as the physical world.

The Empress does not characterizes me very well, but i must flow towards it,...

I think i am not conventional;. i am a deeply spiritual person and i resonate better with the High priestess...

She is the divine feminine and she has a book open on her lap. She values truth and knowledge above all things...
And her consort is not of flesh, but the moon.

But the moon hides many illusions...
Perhaps she hides behind her long robes for within herself the fire burns...
Is she really into truth, for she lies at the border of darkness or light?

There is matriarchal ambiguity,
She is the guardian of the feminine powers, but she is not mother...

Because it also mean she is sterile, unlike the Empress who is the mother, with a full belly...

She embodies the Nun, the servant of God, that lives only for Spirituality.

The feminine twin is driven by the Spirit and the breath, it is Cancer and the moon.

There is a paradox in the High Priestess, that she is cloaked, and the passion within her is controlled but visible..
Underneath a cold exterior there is light, and a glowing fire, shining.

The masculine twin is entirely different, because he is driven by masculine sexual energy. he is the Scorpio, and the energy of Pluto.
I am Cancer, the crab, and the Moon, in my twin flame energy...

The masculine is able to channel an energy that most people find difficult or frightening....
To control something that can control others...

The card the Devil is not the one who enslaves, but sets free,

He has the white sword of truth.
He is not the Devil of the Christian  faith, but a tool for understanding...

It is generally a difficult energy to manifest , but for some, it gives great strength and Power over obstacles.

 It symbolizes the spider, the snake and the Scorpion and it is always a masculine energy.
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They are animals who defend, and protect the innocent, and their venom is fire....

Fire is a dangerous and powerful energy...
Learn to master it, or be destroyed by it.
Temptation is represented in this card, as we must resist what we know is toxic or harmful to us...

There is also a tremendous energy linked to Pluto and the subconscious. it gives the individual amazing deep insights into things, They have a deep vibration, that can be very seductive.

It is the planet of mystery.after all.....

It gives the masculine twin, charisma, and a sexually charged Aura, but they need to channel this energy in a positive way.

Those people can seem one dimensional because the Soul is linked to the sexual organs, and so they value relationships and sexual encounters more than most.

They like Sex, and sexual energies as a way to relate to the world.
It is in a sense that they are easily seduced by people and things that are attractive to them...
They may seem volatile, but they are not superficial...
They may have an intense personal magnetism,,.

Within the twin connection there is an opportunity for the masculine, to feel very fulfilled sexually and physically.
The connection is dealing with feeling attractive, or being attracted to the magnetic field of the twin....

When they are together physically, they will both feel a sense of well being and renewed health,
Twin flame through exchange, enhance each other in all areas of life. They may appear younger than they are, and have more vitality than most people...

But most of all, the twin brings Peace and stability, something the masculine may have struggle with, all their lives.

They are the people who don't do well, being tied down, they are often manifesting selfish behaviors and are reproached for it...

They may try to make amends, by being overly generous with their money...
They are also people who either live out of a suitcase or have elaborate sets of cutlery or dining equipment...

They feel very unable to have stability, and even a stable surrounding do nothing to keep them grounded, despite the fact that they need meaning in their lives..

When it comes to partners, this male twin has felt very unfulfilled sexually and physically.

For them, everything goes through the physical and sensory experience. They  will often store memories, of physical events in their lives, rather than simply a memory in their mind...

They have probably have had to adapt over time, and tone down their passion because they can be seen as destructive by others.

The demand for physical passion if not properly channeled, can lead to self destructive behaviors regarding sex,,

Lust and late walks in dark alleys, even as projection in the mind, may lead to the person feeling that they suffer from a sex addiction.
But they do not, they simply have more fire energy than most..

The person may have been able to control their desires, through  a strong sense of morality.

But they are far away from being deprived, as the aspects of the individual is to seek knowledge and deep understanding...

Wherever in other people, the dark side enslaves the person , this individual is strong enough, to have channeled this energy.

It is in fact, a very beautiful purple flame of truth.

There is nothing deceitful this light, it is very misunderstood, and the Devil card is feared by most, through ignorance.

For here, it is nothing to do with fear or illusion, on the contrary, the devil energy is about cutting out what is false, and deceitful.

In fact through observation, the person is actually a seeker of truth.
They have a realism about life,because they may have learned first hand, about temptations of all kind.
They may have witnessed depravity in their lives, drug or alcohol abuse, of first hand addiction...
And been strong enough to withstand it..
The person has an unusually strong character...

Pluto makes the masculine intuitive, sensitive and a deep thinker...
But they are not relating to the emotional, like the feminine, their sensitivity is anchored in the Physical. They are not emotional as such, and not romantic in that sense...

They may have tremendous strength physically, and mentally.
And may have a incredibly strong sense of morality.

The color for that energy is black and purple.
Purple indicates a spiritual affinity or even a religious dimension ...

In a way, where most people fail, they succeed because they have tremendous control over the dark side.
They must be careful not to give in to low and base activities, as the sign suffers with connection to prostitution, sexually transmitted diseases, and sexual addiction.
It is up to the individual not to give in to  negative and destructive behaviors.
If they trust their moral compass, they can navigate those seas, where others would sink...

Twin flame energy balances that energy and heals traumas.
The masculine twin might feel unwanted at times, due to a lack of connectivity through physical contact.
And through the twin flame connection, they might experience great release, relief, and great freedom...

It is likely that the person is very tactile and may have lacked physical interaction, and tenderness in their previous relationships, they may have perceived their partners as cold, unresponsive, and unloving.

For this person, love is manifested through physical contact, and these are very important for them, They are very responsive to heat and cold, as well..

The main principle part of their health is the skin, genitals, hair, eyes and nails..
These are the main meridians in the body that are affected by change..

Without the twin flame in their life, the masculine twin feels unloved, unfulfilled in relationships through lack of communication and physical connection.
They may fall into despair feeling that no one really loves them..

They can have a sense of rejection of who they are, and so there will be a  tendency to hide certain traits of their personality.
In a sense they may appear cold themselves, detached and uncaring...
But it is a shell..

They are very sensitive to criticism ,and will mull over disapproving words for a long time...
They are use to dissimulate who they are...
And they fear reproach and criticism...
They may have felt shame in the past, and are sensitive to other's opinions of them...


These are not people who long for one stands, or will sleep with anyone..

On the contrary, Pluto gives the individual a sincere desire to connect through sex on a Spiritual level,

This is what drives the twin flame connection towards an end..

The masculine is fire and passion.

Having a sensitive Cancerian woman paired with a passionate masculine Scorpio, might not seem the perfect match, but this is where the aspects are placed , in the twin flame connection

And you cannot change these.

The masculine twin finds Peace, and the feminine twin finds Protection

Both find Love, within one another.

In fact they find in each other, what they need the most..
Acceptance..

The fire of the masculine, and the water of the feminine flows like a warm water...
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It is symbol of Hawaii, Iceland, where the volcanoes warm the flowing waters...

The divine energy between the twin is like a Geyser, bursting out of the ground, beautiful , powerful and mysterious.

There is an element of the mysticism, and magic in twin flame....

These are the primordial forces of creation.

The masculine forces the feminine to face truth, without layers, it asks the feminine to cut through the veils and reveal all.

Because of the devil energy we can see that, there are  many obstacles in the way of the twin,  if they do not honor the relationship between them

There is a divine connection, but it is not divine as we know it. but as a manifestation of pure love.

The divine here, is represented by the Devil card...

Because there is no deceit, the wings means absolute dedication to the truth.
Even though he is made of flesh, and the material plane,  he also is winged, as an Angel, it leads us to knowledge and divinity...

I must really insist that i am not talking here of the Christian Satan, or Lucifer in any way.
These figure are horrid and immoral, this is a completely different energy...
This is the Tarot...

The twins are bonded by a physical bond, that is unbreakable.
They are One immortal soul, into one mortal flesh during Union...

Control has very little to do with it, as when the twin embrace this powerful energy they will realize the power within them.

It is absolute, and it frees them from the mortal illusion...

By dealing with the actual problems and difficulties of  material life, and the need of the flesh itself, The twins are able to elevate themselves, and reach divine illumination. which is white light.

They must understand that they are One, two flesh into one,and One true soul...

Perhaps Spirit is also asking the twins to recognize what is trapping them...

There is a feeling that by reconnecting through union, there is a lessening of suffering.

Addictions of all sorts and connection to Death, darkness fear, and base human existence, is released and avoided...

The attachment to physical survival, is also released.

All there is is pure light surrounding the twins.

They can deeply understand  what enslaved them,
 But what held them back is no more, and what stood between them is no more.

The illusion is lifted, the veils that covered the high priestess are taken away now, as the twins are naked and vulnerable, standing side by side...
they are not shackled by the flesh but freed by it...

They are able to see the truth that all is love, and that only love can save you and free you, from the bonds of suffering.....

The message is that only when you confront your fears, and what holds you down, you free yourself from falsery and deceit...

Spirit is asking both twins to enter the cave of knowledge ,unafraid,

The body is the temple in which you pray,  love is the master, God is love, love is the truth...
and love is the key to your mortal chains...

There is no time, no lies or deceit; they are free, and through that freedom there is ultimately Peace...

The illusion that God was detached from the being is no longer true, there is a re-connection to Spirit,

There is absolute truth and clarity.

The sword of truth cuts through anything that is not love and releases pain, the twins have suffered.

The card shows the Devil holding his hand saying enough! Stop!...

The twin have suffered enough!

They must now be brought together, to heal what has hurt and wounded them

Apart from each other, they have learned a valued lesson and the price of disobedience..

They are returning to a state of innocence, for we are born naked into this world without possession or clothing

 The twin must now return to Oneness, and understand that they were always linked as One,

 As Spirit made man and woman as a whole. For the female joins to the male, to create life in flesh.

We are born from the flesh and yet within us lies dormant the manifestation of pure and divine light..

The twins must elevate from the many lessons they have learned. like a pyramid they must ascend to truth as One...

The figure stands above ground, as there no death, or pain. The cup which is red is filled with the blood of creation, there is life beyond death, which connects to the female womb and the blood of menstruation.

The Figure has both female and male part, as the woman and man are One in Soul, but also in Flesh.

The man is he powerful defender, and the women is the nurturer, and. both are being brought together to understand you are One with me...

And so the purple flame of the twin flame must shine to enlighten the darkness...

Love is the Savior...

My friend asked me the other day, what do you want out of life?

And i didn't know what to say, except that  i want to be happy obviously...
But that's very vague...

In fact, i feel that i don't want anything....

I am not living in expectations of my twin , even though i am working towards re connection to him..
I am not pining after it, and i don't think we should do that,

We wait for this supposedly magical reunion.,that everyone is talking about..
But i say, don't wait, just be in the moment...
If things must happen, they will...

For me , living in my truth feels like the most important.
It is not about being right or wrong then, it is speaking from a place of the heart , that cannot feel disappointed or hurt..

Something is either true, or it's not....
What you believe has nothing to do with it....
So put your trust in Truth...

Now with a little experience, i have realized that i am doing my part in the connection and that's all that seem to be asked of me.

I am learning and understanding that this relationship is a permanent one, that whatever difficulties you encounter in life, there is no leaving or closing the door behind you..

And that feels sort of reassuring, when there are so many fleeting moments in life.
The connection is on solid rock.

I also understand that we must not allow ourselves to fall into the trap of Drama.
In a way when we exaggerate things or make things bigger than what they really are , it's  a form of lie..
To deny something is really happening, is also a lie..

There are many instances in life where through fear and Ego we are tempted to lie, in that manner.
It's a form of protection, but we can't hide anything when it comes to divine love.
It's all about transparency...

Being in a twin flame has taught me a lot , about how damaging lying can be...
It is like an rotting apple that contaminates everything...
Nothing good comes out of it. and nothing ever will..

I have a French mother, and without criticizing her , she is always creating drama and gossiping about the whole neighborhood.
I find it very draining and pointless in a sense, to speak to Paul about Joe, and so on...
Who cares?
We do not get along, and we never see eye to eye...
We are so different...

I am bit like the black sheep, i am estranged from my family...
Their values are not my values, and over time, i have found best to avoid any contact altogether...

I don't like to use judgment on others, unless i have something useful to say..

For me being spiritual has nothing to do with perfection ,but about honesty.
Be honest with others, but be honest with yourself ,first...

Yes, at first,with the twin connection, there was a tendency on my part to think everything must be coming from me, and that this can't be true..
Thinking it was just my imagination...

 I felt angry, and i felt the need to deny anything was really taking place. I tried to rationalize it..

I think i felt nearly embarrassed and ashamed, perhaps i felt people would make fun of me if i started to speak truly about Spirit and the Divine within me.
I  thought people would think i am crazy, or mistaken...

I lacked confidence all my life to speak my truth.

I always was unable to share my beliefs with others, no one knows that i am a Clairvoyant, it is something like the 4th body energy, that i have dissimulated all my life...
When i read for people, i do it for free, and they are usually strangers...

I felt weird, and odd most of my life.... Being different felt something, that had to be hidden...
Even when i knew something bad was going to happen, it was hard to warn people of it...


Through the twin connection, it is giving the courage to simply be honest with who i am, and it feels  almost like a relief,, because there are so many light workers out there, all over the world..

And i don't feel so alone, talking about Spirit and reading the Tarot...

I feel free, to be who i am..

Also the expectation  i had on my twin have been released because it feels good to know, i only have to do half of the work, i am suppose to do my part, and that's all...

No one had put me in charge of our connection, i had put that burden  on myself, all on my own...


I was so clouded by doubts and fears at first, that i could not see clearly..

That's one thing that i know, when you are in lie, you cannot see anything, it is completely incompatible with the Psychic gift.

Truth is an incredibly powerful energy...

I have also come to terms that there is only one twin, and that you cannot change him...
He may grow of  his own, but there is no point exhausting yourself organizing the whole twin thing..

It does not work, the universe does not respond to control..
It only responds to love..

And yes, because our connection makes me lucky, there was the temptation to use the energy for personal gain..
And i have learned hat this won't work either, you cannot cheat the connection..

Couldn't i simply win at games of chance, and end up on a beach somewhere?
And would it fulfill my life?

I thought lying on a beach in the Maldives might not be so bad, after all...
But this is not only about me..
It's about me and my twin..

The only way to that beach, is holding hands with him...
There is two of you, selfishness is out of the question...

Is there any amount of things, i can buy before i run out of steam...
Do i need to own so may pairs of shoes?
That is the paradox of human existence,  You can have the perfect life with a closet full of designer clothes, and feel as empty as a bin...
It's where it ends up, in the bin or the recycling center, whatever you choose....
Nothing lasts forever..

Giving up all of your possession might seem far too extreme, but this new trend of minimalism, is asking a very good question..
Why do we buy so much stuff.?

Why are our houses filled with junk, and things we don't need?

I think i am guilty of being a part of this brainwashing.....

There is nothing more than i like than going shopping and spending money i don't have..
Retail therapy, they call it...

Louis Vuitton bag, and Chanel espadrilles are like the height of style, are they not?...

I knew someone who told me,, that buying Designer clothes was not her style, and that she thought it was so superfluous
Children were dying in Africa, for God's sake...

She had so much to say about it, and yet she owned 5 Plasma screens, all the latest kitchen gadgets, and a $60.000 Designer kitchen!!

But that's OK, all is well in the world, when yo have 4 ovens, 2 sinks, that you never use!!

We all trying to find a substitute for Love by buying so much shit.......

I agree that owning too much ,is  a destructive cycle, that never ends, but let's not be hypocrites, we all do it...

I don't know, if we should all adopt the Marie Kondo method, of folding your socks one way, and only keeping the thing that brings you joy...

But yes, Minimalism highlights one thing, spending money does not make us happy...

I am playing the Devil's advocate here, when i speak about shopping ,because i am into fashion blogging..

Yes! It definitely deals with the superficial aspects of life, trends, the latest bag, the latest pair of Louboutins shoes
I am definitely guilty of loving beautiful things in the shop window...

But then, i don't mind admitting that i come from a dark place, where i could barely walk, speak, and stand up...
For nearly 8 years, everyday of my life has been mostly spent in the dark, bedridden, sleeping without recovering any energy. If there was a hell, i was in it..

I could only eat with a plastic spoon,  and i ate mostly liquid and baby food.; i could not walk without help.
Even then ,i could only manage a few yards, once a month...

Being sick, is like being in a tunnel, where you lose all sense of time...

X-mas came and went, and to me it felt like a month had passed , when it all had been a year.

I could not listen to music, enjoy a film, or watch TV.
I only found comfort in sounds of nature, and you tube videos...
You tube was my world...

I never gave up, and i always held onto the belief that food was my salvation..

I saw a talk with David Wolfe and i heard testimonies of people who like me were sick, and had managed to heal themselves.completely..

And so i went whole hardheartedly into raw Organic food, despite the fact that i did not have much money, and it was costing an absolute fortune.! I made the sacrifices...

I thought i would heal, but i never did
I would get slightly better and then, relapse..
It was back to  nutritional shakes for me...
I was in a never ending battle with my body...
It was like living with the enemy...

I could not eat at some point, and i became so dehydrated that my weight fell at 6 stone, i was dying...

No one at the hospital could help me on a long term basis, i would always relapse and feel worse every time...

But i persevered with food, and i was adamant that it was the cure..

I tried every diet, and eliminated literally every food group...
In the end i was eating organic baby food, with a plastic spoon...

Nothing was working for me..

I am a firm believer of the power of the mind, and i thought you can conquer anything if you will it hard enough...

I always thought through meditation and sheer will, you can achieve anything..

An there were all the Gurus promising me great health and happiness, and all i saw was my health deteriorating...

I can say that during this time, i watched Rafael Nadal playing tennis, and i followed his matches avidly , because he believes that you must fight, and endure it all to win the match...
Somehow it made sense, and it gave me courage...

Seeing someone so talented, inspired me everyday to climb my own mountains...

It gave some rhythm and meaning to my dull life, and , it would start with the Australian Open and end with the Barclays championship at the O2 ...

My dream was to go to Wimbledon and see him play, and i can say i managed to go in 2011.

It was a great achievement for me, and despite not being able to stay the whole day, it was good. minus the journey there and back...
A painful nightmare...
But i kept on watching him on TV., obviously it never helped in any way, or healed me...

I am not asking for sympathy, but i just want to share what the twin flame experience really is about...
Because all along i was being told about Love and how it was the Key..
But for years i didn't understand, and i kept on holding on to food....

Kicking the habit has been hard,
Food to me is like the savior of all saviors..

I am addicted to healthy food, and it has become a passion, as well as an obsession.

There is nothing i like more than reading Organic,gluten free, on packets, i am also a food junkie...

There has been time where i thought i would become a nutritionist, and qualify as a consultant...

Watching David Wolfe on the internet was like my drug...
 And i though  yes, the Organic apple, let's worship the raw enzymes...

Coming from such a place, definitely gives me a different perspective on the twin flames connection as a whole..
And it also gives me a strange perspective on my twin...

It is not that i owe him something, it is that perhaps he might not understand that breathing everyday, is not something i take for granted...

I have a different view of life, in general...

For me,  his love is the Savior...

If you can't beat them...

Walking back with your reptilian tail, dragging behind you, feeling like all this bravado was all in vain.

All that confidence, thinking, leave it, i can do this on my own..,,
And then turning a moment later, realizing i need help!!!...

It's not that as a woman i am misjudging my own strength, it is that i must not try to overflow to the masculine side , or i will become unbalanced.....

When it comes to the twin flame template, the feminine is always taking on too much..,

We are not expected to carry the world on our shoulders...

I think it makes us resentful in the end anyway, if we feel we are not being supported.by the masculine..

Love is not about sacrifice, working towards Union, is not about exhausting yourself,  giving endlessly, all your love to one man, and getting nothing in return.

Actually ,when it comes to the feminine, love is not about giving at all, it is all about receiving...

Many women feel that they have to give everything to a man, and give up something of themselves in order to be with him.
This is wrong...

The woman complains that the man never says i love you, and she thinks that by giving him seemingly everything he needs, he will grow into loving her...

But that is not the truth....

A man is not a little boy, and men are not to be treated like children, we are not their mothers.


What can transcend is that the man may become complaisant and bored, or may feel trapped, while the woman  may becomes needy, and depleted in energy

She may also become resentful. feeling she is wasting her love on someone who does not reciprocate.her feelings..

The woman may try to please the man, and do his every whim, but she will never be getting love, out of it...
She will soon get tired of it....
Affection and care are well enough , but it is not Love...

In fact this has nothing to do with Love, it is to do with control....

Some women may even feel that by criticizing and affecting the masculine self esteem, she will make him feel less attractive to other women, and he will be less likely to leave her.


Why is this happening?
It is because the woman nurture the man like a child, and does not inspire him to become his true self.


Some space must remain for growth.....
We are all guilty to want to heal a man's heart, when in fact, we must inspire him to heal himself...

By receiving his love, we make him feel strong. He feels valued,.understood and wanted...

Through accepting who he truly is, we do not weaken him...

Acceptance means i accept you for who you are, without judgment...


When you look at nature it is a simple truth that the woman is like a flower,who must receive, and the man must give a part of himself, and be received...
It is an exchange....

Everything is about simplicity and common sense, if the woman tries to give, she will become exhausted and unbalanced...
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It is because the masculine longs to give, and the feminine longs to receive...

The feminine is not expected to do everything on her own, as union is about balance,
In Spirituality, we must  always consider the mutual aspect of the relationship.


That's the old dilemma of the feminine, she does not ask for help, but later complain she is not getting what she needs.


I truly believe we burden ourselves for no reason....


The masculine is here to support the feminine.
Always and forever...
Although she might feel alone at times, it is important to reset the definition of duality...


We live in a  modern world ,where the boundaries between male and female are blurring...

New terms such as fluid or transgender, are becoming part of out vocabulary...
Even though we all approach it with tolerance, i also ask myself. are we loosing our identities?.
Are we experiencing a gender crisis?

Because in fact, the  masculine and the feminine, energies, are fundamentally very different from one other..

One expands and one constricts, One is outward and active, one is inward and passive...

Becoming respected for who we are, is not an easy task...

If we follow the quintessential rules of traditional relationship, a woman is still very much a wife and a mother..
She is still seen as the nurturer...
When we look at Egyptian figurines of Isis feeding her son Horus, it is a simple act of Love..
A  mother feeding her young child...


The template of the 1950 housewife, is no longer viewed as viable for most, so as women we have been wounded...
Are we loosing our feminine power ?

If the feminist movement gave us a voice, it also spoke for us all, and i believe it came at  a price...
When women asked for equality. did they really get a fair deal?


Spiritually, the woman's equilibrium can be in jeopardy, if she tries to deny her femininity.


Because it is inward that lies her greatest strength.

To deny the womb is to deny the power of creation lying dormant within us.

We may be  as equals with men, but we are not expected to take on masculine roles.

Our whole constitution and metabolic rate is different than a man.. are we to deny the obvious truth?

Why would we wish to drive a tractor, or work on a building site?
What exactly are we trying to prove?

When we seek balance and harmony within ourselves. is it time to return to a state of innocence, and follow the simple flow of nature?

Perhaps more than ever we need to take on the guidance of the heart.

Love can shows us the gentle way, without having to force anything. We do need to forge our path ahead, but simply follow it...

All the doors that are left closed will remain so, if we try to use force.

Nothing can come from violence..as women we need to allow the masculine to take its place. and we must take ours, In a sense that without the balance of both the feminine and the masculine, there will be no order,

Love cannot blossom in Chaos..

Our greatest power is the ability to look within, and trust out intuition

We must act as part of a feminine energy, but allow the masculine to experience truth, in his own way for the man must take a step forward.

The divine masculine energy is the fire that burns bright, he is the scorpion, the snake and the spider, For the masculine power is about defense and the ability to heal...
She is the ice that must melt , in order to create the divine waters.

The feminine must never compete with the masculine ...

He is the reflection in the mirror of two halves and the reflection of herself..
But we must look through our hearts...

The most eye opening lesson, i have learned is that you cannot let go of your twin...

The twin flame connection resonates of absolute truth.

It is as if the actual universe only responds to that truth, and it manifests it very simply..

Be in the flow of the connection, and have a wonderful time with life, or turn yourself from it, and it will give you the most terrible time ...

This is how it was for me a first..
And i came to fear Spirit wrath, if i didn't follow Divine Love and live in truth...
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Now. i am starting to enjoy the feedback i get from Spirit, because i am starting to feel a sense of purpose, but it was not always so.....

The One feels very meaningful and purposeful ,especially in the context of  a relationship.
And i have come to accept that this is a journey....

It's sort of reassuring that the Universe works to bring the two side of the soul together.

All you need to do is surrender to that truth, and remember that the Universe does not make any mistakes..

Believing that i needed to make me the focus, of my life and resisting the connection, has brought me many challenges and difficulties, on the emotional and the material plane..
Honestly , it as brought me nothing but trouble.....

It is what you would categorize as bad luck...
Yes, when i walk away from the connection , i get  terrible luck.
Also watch out if you are telling lies even small, this connection does not allow it!

Money disappears, my car gets damaged, a project gets cancelled at the last minute, i buy something and it's broken, someone steals from me, you name it, i feel like i am under a terrible black cloud,..

On the contrary, when i make my beloved and our connection, the center of my life, everything flows properly, and i get good luck, events and surprises, serendipity you would call luck.
I win at games of chance, and i get amazing help from the universe...
But go against the flow.... And every time, troubles ahead...,
Everything is energy....

It is as if Spirit and the Universe are chastising me, and disciplining me like a naughty child.

It is like, you are being disobedient and it is exactly how it feels ; when i go against the twin flame energy, i am being rebellious...

And Spirit immediately taps me on the fingers, and lets me know., this is not going to happen...
 I have become almost fearful of  those manifestations...

I feel very much that Spirit is very active and very present, during this time of re connection.

Everything you live becomes about that...
It is not to learn exactly,  but more to reconnect to that state of divine state...

It means you have to rethink about the beloved, because it is not contained into what they do or what they look like..
 As the relationship with the twin evolves, it is mostly physical , and not through food, creativity or Art.

Twin flames do not relate this way..

Obviously there are many forms of communication between human beings in general, and Art is a way to share your views and expand your creativity but it is not purposeful or meaningful when it comes to twin flames.

It is like spending a lot of time and money on clothes, when the twin connection is about intimacy and honesty. It is about striping everything bare.

It is shedding the layers of your characters and taking everything off.

In order to become One with your twin,you cannot have secrets between the two, the communication is all about truth,and so as we are naked in flesh , we are also naked spiritually and emotionally.

There is no place for masks anymore, despite the fact that we need to be different people for others.
With the twin we are only ourselves, in our most intact energy of Love.

Oneness cannot happen without this truth.

The man and the woman, must be as One, open to each other, it is like a phone call from somewhere distant, it is a unique communication...

In  Divine Union, there is no interference between the twin. they are One, free from fear and opposition.

There is no more space between the two halves of the soul, there is no more space between them.
No one and nothing between this love.

This is why they say let no one put asunder what God has made whole, and brought together...

This is the promise of the freeing of the soul from its chains and  bonds.

It is not our flesh that imprisons us, but rather our inability to be in Love...

Love is freedom...

The ebb and flow....

I remember saying that twin flames are on a scale, one on each side, and so they balance each other...

Some light workers suggested that if one twin is higher than the other, automatically one is lower, to balance that scale...

I don't know if i agree with that at all...

I feel like when my beloved feels bad, so do i... We are one of the same..

If he feels disappointed or sad, i feel it, without explaining how...
Sometimes i can also feel his frustration with certain things...


I think maybe those who are more successful in life, are simply people who are more willing to embrace their mission, and are more in touch with their emotions.

It is so easy to play the blame game, but i don't think that's useful.

I think speaking from a place of Love, is like being on a vantage point,

 Everything seems insignificant, compared to Divine Peace...

I can only speak from my own heart, but i feel if someone is better at something ,it is because they are more mature in themselves.
You certainly cannot walk around like an headless chicken, and learn much...


I feel like there is the feminine corner and the masculine corner, and both need to work on their issues separately, and mature and grow within themselves...

There are many public cases of twin flames having to work through many emotional issues, sometimes over long period of time.before being reunited..

What if the twin is in a relationship with someone else?

Everything is in motion, nothing stays still, and sometimes circumstances change, and things happen, it's life...

Once again there are plenty of cases of twin flame being in relationship with other people, and ending up with their twin in the end....

Yes, there are some happy endings...

I think energy is very wise; in a sense that it's always for the benefit and greater good of everyone.

It is not about breaking up marriages or relationships, it is about truth and acknowledging the connection as valid and meaningful.

Love cannot exist by force, it is a gentle flow , not a bulldozer!

Most relationships are rooted  in a 3 dimensional existence, with 3 dimensional companions...

As most people have 3 Dimensional bodies.

That is what you would call average, normal or common.

 The three  main bodies are the physical, the intellectual and the emotional...

This is what we know as an everyday life.. Our projected reality.

5th dimensional relationships, are very rare and unusual because most people do not have the 4th and 5th bodies anymore.

The human soul  is descending, regressing and falling into a more primitive way of existence, which is to do with survival.
The truth is that there is very little light and divine Love, left on Earth. It is a sad truth...

The two extra bodies are :the Etheric body and the Spiritual body...

The Etheric body deals with Energy and the regulation of health and well being beyond physical needs.

It is mostly made of light and it is where luck happens.
That energy is a bit like a miracle energy.
It can manifest dreams, and alter reality...

It is very fragile and can deplete very easily,
Most people who have this extra body , suffer terribly from energy shift, including myself.

It  is very rare to find someone with an intact, and undamaged Etheric shield.

Most bodies are depleted and  greatly damaged... i will talk in another posts about this particular body and how it gets drained by others...

Because we live in a world hat has very little of this energy left. This is where Love can repair and can be stored. It increases vitality, and luck in life.

When i receive Love from my twin, it increases my luck so much, i am able to win at games of chance for example...

It is the magician and the miracle energy.
This is why Love is so valuable to others, and why they can steal your energy...
I will explain more on this subject later...


The Spiritual body, and 5th body, deals with the outside realms and other dimensional planes of existence.
This where you can experience connection to God, and Spirit.

You are able to perceive the past and the future, equally.
You can see clearly outside of your physical body. It deals with astral travel and knowledge.

It is the eye and the top of the Pyramid.

It is where the highest vibrations resides, including divine Love.

Because we live i a 3D existence, the two extra bodies can lay dormant, therefore the person is like asleep, and not awaken to themselves.

However they may long for more than what this mundane life has to offer, and they feel weigh down by the everyday routine.

They are in need of meaning in their lives.

But you literally can live a whole life without tuning  into the extra bodies, even denying that they are there.

The pressure to conform to a  base 3D life is very great, and you will find that most people feel unfulfilled, feel different, alone and misunderstood when they try to mold to the conventional views of the 3D. they feel restricted and burdened by this stiff routine...


Those extra bodies especially in childhood ,are often seen and treated as abnormal, strange or unusual...

It can leave the person feeling very alone and isolated emotionally.

I think i would definitely fit in that criteria, in some ways perhaps also would my twin...

I was never alone in my life, but i  can say that i felt alone,.
I thought there was definitely something wrong with me, because the 3D realm did not provide for me what i needed.
It seemed very limited to just eat. sleep, shower and repeat...
Even though the daily bread is necessary, it can't fulfill the need of the Soul.

I was in a  relationship with my last partner, and i must admit that we were getting on very well,  I guess you could say we were happy...

But something was missing, and i could not compromise, and live my life this way.

I felt it all, the longings, being up at night looking at the Tokyo sky and wondering, is this all there is?
My whole future seemed mapped in front of me, being a wife and having children...

Even though he was always kind to me, i felt he could not relate to my spiritual insights, i felt he was on the outside , always looking in, and not being truly part of me.
He was very tolerant of my Psychic gifts, and even encouraged me to listen to my inner voice...

And so i trusted my instincts, i listened... As Spirit was talking to me about someone they called the Ambassador. and explained how this person would change my life..

How could i be with one man while being told of another? I could not, and so i made the difficult decision to leave.

I had no money of my own, and no flat to live in... I had invested all of my time and resources in this relationship ...
Most of all, i was living all the friends and family i had known. behind, and also i was leaving my fiancee.....

The man who already called me his wife, and had shown me so much kindness...


I ended the relationship abruptly, because i couldn't explain to myself why i did not love him, and i thought if he is not my soulmate, i would rather be alone, than living a lie.

I couldn't go on deceiving him, , while my thoughts were busy with our lives, my soul was wandering at night...

And i thought what if i am keeping him from meeting someone else who could love him better.?

We were good friends, but something was missing that meant too much for me, my soul...

To me those two extra bodies can feel like a burden sometimes...

The whole world seems to be running at a  different speed than me.

When i am concerned with spiritual matters everyday of my life, the world goes on around me.

I speak to Spirit and i have visions nearly every night.,and i write them down...

And then,  i have to get on with the rest of my day, like everyone else, pay bills, and go to the store, spend time with friends and watch movies...

It is how i live my life..

And yes, it is unusual,  a part of my life is detached from reality...


When i met Ron, a psychic from America, he simplified everything for me, and it was such a relief to hear him talk about Spirit; he is able to see many things before they happen, but the thing that is so amazing about him is that he sees the past...

To me that was proof when he saw something that had happened to me..

It was nothing tragic, nothing magical, simply that i had been sick and he described to me,  moments to moments, things only known to me, as if he had been there...

He told me, you know more than others, trust your intuition!


But he is also the one who put his fists on the table, and said get with it!

When he tells you. you are wrong. He doesn't sugar coat anything, and if you need a wake up call, you will get it...

He is not a patient person and it always surprises me how blunt he can be...

He once' nearly hanged up on me, because he thought i was whining...
I like that because i associate it with honesty.
He doesn't bullshit me...

I have had readings before with fellow Psychic, and most were vague and i could see that they knew nothing about me..
After many years, i have learned that most light workers are pure and simple charlatans...

One powerful encounter was with a Psychic, who was an ex- ballerina, and her calling was so great she abandoned dancing, and dedicated her life to reading Tarot.

When she read for me, i was very skeptic and not very open, i told her plainly, i don't believe any of it!
She stood up and said go and find someone who will tell you what you want to hear.!

But it was true, i  did travel to Japan, and nearly made it my home, even though at the time, it sounded so improbable...

Those encounters have changed my life, because it has showed me that there are still traces of this wonderful light in people... even though it is faint.

It makes me feel that in fact, i  am not alone...

And so does my twin flame, he makes me feel that despite the distance, there is hope for us...

Yes, living in this world makes me feel like an alien sometimes,but it's not all bad, The 3D can keep you grounded, and that's fine...

Unfortunately, there is a  one serious downside of being spiritual and having a 4th light body..

Many of us. are more susceptible to spiritual draining...

We  can suffer from many spiritual illnesses due to attacks on our Etheric body.

Because this is where light resides, it is very fragile...
There is actually very little protection against what is known as Psychic vampirism, or energy draining.

As long as we live in cities, our Etheric energy will continue to deplete, and we will keep on being sick,

Only love can save us...

Love is the healer, and it is apparent in the twin flame connection.
Especially among men, there are abilities to heal, and channeling healing energies waiting to awaken.......

Until then, we must manage the ebb and flow...

The absolute connection....

You cannot be with another person, but the twin, once you are on this journey of union and reunion..

Spirit asked me in a dream, why him, why this one and not another?, what is so special about this one?

And i couldn't articulate anything coherent, I felt everything i was thinking about, was the wrong answer.

I felt like a child ,as if i knew nothing...

Here i was ,believing this man to be my twin flame and yet i didn't know why?
I could not find a reason...

It was not because of his appearance, or what he had said, or  any of his talents, where he came from,, or his personality..

I had lived my life, believing in fairy tales...
Watching movies, where the perfect guy, always says the perfect thing.. You had me at Hello!

No, it was as if everyone else, was just a shadow of him.
Like a memory i could not place...
That did not have a name, or a face...
It was just the knowing of this energy....
It was like the wind ...

Everything reminded me of him even though i did not know it, or who he was,
I was haunted by him...

I was drawn to everything that had his vibration, and i could see how long i had looked for him in other people ,without realizing it...

Everything had happened naturally, without me making conscious choices...
And i realized i had been led to him..

When i met my twin, i thought i was closing a door, not opening a door...
Everything had happened out of my control...

Love was something that happened to me...
I did not choose it...
I did not choose him...
That was the right answer...

The feminine is very much caught into a web of deceit ,when it comes to selecting  a suitable partner.
Meeting someone in a public place is probably the most common....
We are told go out and get a date!

Twin flames are often of different age, live very far apart in distance, and there are many things that difference them, like religion, race, nationality..
How do they fit in that social paradigm?

Our mind are being mapped with stories...
But they are not our own...

It's so true that our life gets influenced one way or another.by those stories...
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And our beliefs end up being a projection of endless dramas, we see in movies...
Human beings are obsessed with drama and death...
Just turn on the TV...

I don't want to bash the feminine, but we have a responsibility to ourselves and the masculine to end those dramas...
We are writing the story of our lives...
W can not fill it with monsters and shadows....


The feminine needs to get to grip with the fact that No, actually the masculine twin does not need coaching on Love.

You have to put your trust in the masculine, that he will come round on his own.
He is like the  Tarot card, the Emperor...
He is a deep thinking knight, with deep convictions...

By trying to control the connection, you are tying to impose your will on him... telling him what he should or should not feel..

You cannot force anyone to love you...
 Love is not about force, actually it is the absence of it...

You end up trying to control the twin..
It will start a war...
That is a bad idea..

Never was love about war and division, it is about oneness, and peace...

You may be in charge of your own growth, and responsible for yourself, but you cannot tell the masculine what to do...

You are not in charge of this connection..
No one put the feminine in charge, especially, not Spirit.
You have equal responsibility in this relationship...

Simply release control, because you may be causing the masculine to have doubts, and stay away from you...

The connection is equal and mutual.

Each part of the soul has a job to do...
Allow the masculine to protect and support you,.as it is intended..

You may come to term, that you have very negative views on the masculine energy, most  of us will have stored it from the past...
Release them...

It is your responsibility to do the work, and clear those obstacles...
Whatever is on your side , clear it...

Whatever you have learned about the masculine energies, has been accumulated over time,.
If it did not come from the pure source of divine love...

It is like a corrupted file.

Delete it from your life...

If an energy comes to you distorted , it can unbalance you, get rid of it....

Fear is a very powerful oppressor. It represents what stands in the way, it is opposition..

When you fear the masculine power not to protect you, but to attack, and harm,
It lessens your ability to trust in yourself...

You might feel you have a lot of latent baggage, coming up to your attention. Look at it...

All of this is created by negative interactions, you may have had with men in general.

It will start with the father and grow from there...
There is also  a dark social energy of the masculine,

The violent archetype,  all of this heavy resonance, affects us all...

The feminine and masculine energies can become charged with negative aspects.

Violence is not felt as violence, but as fear...
The feminine may find herself fearing the masculine energies.

Fear is the enemy of love..

Where Love fills the cup, fear will empty it...

I believe that is why men and woman fight constantly, they are out of balance with themselves and others.

Twin flame is about healing this Paradigm, and so being in this connection will highlight the area where you might have issues

The feminine will blame the masculine for certain things that happened in their past, or even in the world...
They forget the masculine twin is always there to heal, and help...

No one is perfect , but the energy of love is to offer assistance,  Sometimes it is simply to hold your twin and comfort them.
Nothing is more comforting than your twin's touch, and kind words...


When it comes to twin flames, there is the right  person, and  then all the other men, who end up basically being, the wrong ones...
It is very transparent...

Spiritually. love cannot hurt you, you cannot be let down by love, or feel unsupported or misunderstood.

The masculine is only asking to be allowed to Love...
He wants to Love and feel love...
He is saying trust me....

The truth is that feminine, you are only one side of this twin energy.

There is no chance really knowing what the masculine wants to say, unless he says it...
Stop speculating on what he thinks, and allow him to tell you...


It is to understand that a relationship is two people not one, two energies and not one.

You cannot be in a relationship alone, so you need to include and integrate the masculine.

Perhaps that is the most respect and love, you can show the masculine,

Trust him to make the right choices for the connection.. Trust that he knows...

If you create negative vibrations, you will reap the reward of those choices...
Because your twin is a part of you, not separate  from you...

You are meant to join in Union and become One.

Love is the absolute connection...

Everything i knew...

This is what i realized, everything i have been told about twin flames, is total bullshit....

I think you cannot know something until you have lived it, and so i realized that people talk so much in the spiritual community,  they speculate endlessly, but they don't seem to really know....

There are so many charlatans out there, because Spirit has become such a lucrative business...
It's hard to tell who is genuine and who is not...

Well , that is not helpful to people who, like me, have many questions that are left unanswered...
The only thing left is to trust my intuition and inner voice..
And the direct messages i get from my own dreams and guidance...

For me, Spirit is not something to find in a book, or a faceless being i can turn to...
Spirit is energy and it affects my everyday life directly...

I have gone through huge changes in my health, and my creativity...
And i was painting more than ever  and feeling so inspired, and now after finding out that food is not energy, love is, i have found out that Art means nothing when it comes to twin flames...

All is an expression of me, and how i expand my own self,  but it's not about Love..
Art is not love...
And my twin doesn't really care about my Art...
It doesn't interest him, because this is not how we are meant to relate.to each other..

I have tried to focus my energy on myself, because ultimately i had problems believing that it was coming from my twin. I rationalized that it must definitely come from me...
That i must be mistaken...

And now i understand it's not so...
And for all those who said you can live without your twin in your life, that you can communicate through time and space, man you're wrong..
Those people cannot be in divine love...

Love is a real relationship, when two people are physically together, relating to each other, able to touch each other. Twin flames cannot relate through food or Art, or anything but to themselves.
Union means just that, Unity, of the masculine and the feminine as One...

Twin flames are a relationship that is no different in a way than any other
You have to be together physically, or it will cause one or both twins immense suffering and pain.
I understand now, the loss of suffering is when you are together, because the suffering is to be apart.

I think that is the punishment that we must endure to be separated from the one single person that is half of you...
Because you cannot tap into another person's energy at a distance, you can't really heal permanently..
The energy will fade eventually..

Energy flows through the twins when they are around each other and when they can communicate through physical contact...
I guess this why we are told we must suffer from our sins. God takes away what you love the most.
For me it was my twin... and the journey is about returning to oneness with him.

I think at some point in my life, i have said that i didn't need him, and i tried to manifest everything on my own without him, i think perhaps i may have been proud and rebellious...
 But one thing is for sure, i was so wrong..... but now i feel scared...

I have said many times, that i need to make me the focus of my life and i was wrong too. I don't think there is anything on Earth that i love more, or need more than my twin.
If you must live your life in truth and passion then he is mine...
I need his love, and i need his touch...

It sounds so ludicrous when people talk about twin flames and they say you can live apart from one another.
Oh yes, it's like being told to meditate and your dinner will appear in front of you, and if it doesn't , well it's your fault, you are not believing hard enough... That's crazy...

Spirit says, go to the shop and buy it, because that is the only thing that makes sense,We are flesh after all, and why would be denied food or water, when we need it to survive.
I need my twin's love and heat, and without it , i am dying in the cold, lacking energy and my health deteriorates very fast...
This is how it is for me, and it is frightening because i am alone with it... he is not here to heal and comfort me...
All i need is to be loved by him, but i am not in his arms...

Because to have his love is to be with him physically.
You do not have love if you are apart, because love is intimacy, and you can't make love at a distance...
So i miss his love....

Maybe so called spiritual people say Love is universal, and is everywhere and everything but i find it's not so...

There is very little of this energy left on Earth, that is why so many people are sick and the planet is so out of balance. I don't know why there is a tendency to sugar coat everything speaking to us as if we are children...

Twin flames is a relationship, between the masculine and the feminine. Actually everything is about a relationship to something or someone.

I am in exile from myself and my twin, and i think you get tormented for your sins, and it is not what you will do but what you have done, that matters...

There is nothing above divine love and there is nothing above the vessel that contains  this Love which is my beloved...
Love is the key to the prison... we are not here to learn, for we forget everything, we are here to find the key to our prison cell, and that is divine Love...

No food or piece of Art can love me, ever ...
When two people are intimate and are in a sexual relationship, then you can say that they are One...
Apart, they are only separate...

Twin flames don't relate through food, creation, or Art.they relate through Sexual union, because there is is nothing higher as a communication.

It is what they call the sacred marriage, when the feminine and masculine merge into one body and one soul.

So are twin flames, they are born to one another, not to live apart but to live together as One...
It's so obvious, in a way, but some lightworkers say, you are One divinely through the Ether......

No! Electricity passes through the physical body and the skin, if you cannot touch each other you don't have a relationship at all, that is a lie...
You cannot create life by thinking it, you cannot create a child at a distance, who came up with this ridiculous fantasy...
Energy is the same, it must manifest through the human body...


I feel abandoned by my twin, because i am not with him...
Love is not to be abandoned.... So i don't understand about many things..

I understand that by making myself the focus point of my life, i simply feel my own energy and i deplete, because i am not receiving anything, i am just using my own...
I am blocking the flow of love..

What i felt from him is the opposite, i received love and energy ,but i was wrong because i thought we could be apart and i could use the energy to further my own life, and that being apart didn't matter so much. We were One anyway...
I was very wrong..

We are not One because we are not in a relationship.... we have a connection, that's not the same...

I thought that there was no road that leads to us being together...
And that frightens me, because i need him, and i wish he wanted to have a relationship with me...
Understanding that, make me feel really sad, because i understand that i am abandoned...

In that sense i feel very much unloved and unwanted...
I ought to make him the focus of my life,because when i do that, i find myself, and everything flows properly...
But being One with him, is to know him,and that is manifested through the physical, so i am left in the cold..

If i could say one thing to my twin, it would be this, is that i am sorry,, i was walking in the wrong direction...
Is there any way back to being together?
I don't know....

But that is one thing i have learned, Twin flame communication is  primordially sexual, and physical.
It's not a story in a book, it is not a fiction....
Everything i knew, was bullshit....

Falling into old habits...

This is when you realize that you are not listening to inner guidance, when you are planning what to eat first thing in the morning......

When you are running to the shops every minute of the day, spending all your money on food, expecting it will change your life...

Thinking i am going to have the perfect pantry, with the perfect health food, and then, i will be complete, happy and healthy...

 NO.....Massive fail!


This idea that food is the key to having energy and happiness, is false, so why am i holding onto this lie?
I am in control, i can control what i eat.... Yes, that's what you say to yourself., as if control had anything to do with it?..

Then all the old habits resurface, but nothing really changes...
Same patterns, same results.... No energy...

Spirit has told me before, food is a mundane energy and yes, of course it affects your health, but it is a fairly easy decision to make., eat well and, live long...
That's common sense....
you do not need an Encyclopedia to make that decision....
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What we eat does not define who we are, when it comes to the soul itself.
We are not what we eat...

And so get out of the kitchen...

I am constantly trying to control what happens to me, because i pretty much think God helps those who help themselves...
I am not a damsel in distress waiting for a prince to rescue her, because i have lost faith that this could ever happen...

I am the one who's helping, not the one who accepts help, even though most of the time, i need it...

It's hard to be a woman.and admit you have your limits, it feels like admitting defeat if you can't do something, the world of man is tough for us women....
Sometimes you need a strong shoulder to cry on,and say it's ok...

I use to believe it is in the nature of man to be and do good, but channeling my spiritual gifts, i have to come to term that a belief does not make it real.

Truth is only absolute, when you speak of higher dimensions...

Divine Love is not something especially common here.in the 3D realm;
actually it is an impossibility in mathematics, that Love energy inhabit the 3 dimensions...
It belongs to the 4th and 5th D of pure light...

There are parts of the world where it is actually absent...

Love is light., yes....
And so without light, there is darkness...

When a tree is being cut down there, is no silver lining, it is gone forever, only a void remains;,you can't sugar coat it...

The light of our world, is dying...

Our human paradigm of greed is ultimately cruel .  It is based around survival, and even though some decent  people are trying to make a difference, human beings take more than they give.. that is a sad fact...


Since starting this twin flame journey, i have battled with my own perceptions, and my own beliefs..

I think i am an optimist at heart, but sometimes optimism can also be perceived as naivety...
The society i want to live in, has become an utopia..
and yes there was a time when man thought that one individual could make a difference...
I don't know if i believe that anymore...

And every time i am put back in my place, it's like being slapped in the face  i have to take another look, and i end up with a more rational and realistic view of our world...
Also colder...
But not all is gloom, thank god...

  The card for twin flame for this month of August, is the Hangman going onto the Fool in September...

The tarot card of  the Hangman is about needing to look at things with fresh eyes, from a different point of view. It is also an advice that we may be approaching a situation with certain prejudice,

It's about breaking free from the beliefs that holds us back, and uncover truth...

We are asked to keep a cool head and use our intellect...
It is the card of logical thoughts.

We understand that our inaction is our own choice; The power for action rest with us, we are the one able to make choices and take decisions...

 We are also asked to challenge our beliefs and ideas ,even if they have become comfortable over time...

We may feel, we use to rely on those false beliefs in the past ,but now they serve us no longer;
they are dated, no longer applicable...
if we got  accustomed to a certain way things got done,  These things are in the past, and we must grow in order to be in touch with reality. we must live in the present,


We need to realize that we must look again, that we may have missed something...

Perhaps we may even feel that it represented who we are, when this is false, in fact; it is just a mask...
we must peel off  the layers ,in order to find what is true...

The hangman is about receiving information and allowing this flow, of new ideas, to energize us...

 It is also a red flag warning us that we are out of balance..


In order to regain this balance, we literally need to see the world upside down, It is about not falling back into old negative habits ,and free ourselves from false doctrines,

It is saying if you are in an uncomfortable situation, you can get out of it, if you see ,what might be right there, under your nose..
It is about seeing what is real, not an illusion...



Food does not manifest anything real when it comes to the soul..

You cannot recharge the Spiritual body with food..

Food is of the mundane energy, valuable only to the physical shell. But essential to life...

Of course it is our responsibility to nourish the body well, so that it functions properly. But the physical body and its energy field does not influence the Soul.

The material world is ruled by matters that do not apply to the Spiritual body.

Where the human mind is limited, the spiritual body is not..

The spiritual energy that rules over creativity and luck, is fueled by the energy called Love.
Only love can fuel and heal all 5 bodies ,as a whole.

Energy affects all 5 bodies but there 3 main ones; the physical body, intellectual body, emotional body.
We all have them, it is the three dimensional world as we know it...

The  etheric body and the spiritual body form the two less well-known energy fields...
Not everyone has them, as they literally have to grow, according to awareness, and light...

The 3rd, 4th and 5th dimensions in mathematics , are represented by the  Metatron cube...

As i widen my understanding of twin flames, i have found out, that the relationship between twins is very much spiritual. first, it stars from the inside out, like a flower...

I think there is very little interest in my twin ,to relate to me through food. He sees it as a mundane and common thing ...

He seems to have no interest in that, at all..


If i made him Sushi, i think he would eat it, but it's not in a true sense, a way to relate to one another and share energy,

It would seem that we would defy the purpose of our union, to remain at a level of only communicating through the everyday..

I feel that the union is dealing with high vibrations, which are of the spiritual and divine spheres..
To bring down the connection ,would not serve either of us...

My twin feels like an all, or nothing kind of person.... True spiritual  love or nothing....

Because of the energy between the masculine and the feminine, i am able to read the collective, which is the Soul..
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It is like if there is constant connection going on, even though you may feel disconnected at times..
You are only disconnected with yourself.
The twin template is permanent...


And so it brings me to ask what is the purpose of a twin flame union.?

On one side the feminine energy, and on the other side the masculine, both One of the same soul...

 The vibrations there, are elements of light, And this light seems to carry information similar to fiber optic.

When i have a dream or a revelation about Spirit, it is because there is  a sort of electricity, that flows through us, that i can read...

 Each set of twin flame has their own characteristics, and are unique....

By reading the energy field you might be able to connect fully to your twin flame, and know things about them and how they feel about you, and they are a real living person.

Those traits of character are unique to my twin..

There does not seem to be a collective field of energy or i am unable to perceive it, beyond my connection at this point...

Perhaps because the energy is still young, it feels further away in space and time...

I do have perception of the departed and other human beings, in this light highway., but not living twins...
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I feel my beloved much more, than any other beings; but there is so much work to be done between us....

Our amniotic fluid is not clear, not void of problems;  many emotional problems and barriers need to be  overcome...

But there is Love, unconditional, and unwavering; both of us have access to that light, equally.

Because we love each other, without judgment at the soul level...
It is the purest form of energy, that we have both access to...

On the material plane, it seems that we are both very immature with our alignment to one another...

I can drop in vibration very easily, as if i am yet to get use to something else being there,, someone else...

I am nearly territorial when it comes to my sphere, sometimes i don't trust or understand that he is also one with me..

I feel that i can be very defensive, when it comes to my own space, and that i am fiercely independent....

I am not willing to bring down my barriers, and i stand my ground, by fear of loosing a imaginary battle...

I have seen it, i am at war with my twin, as i am at war with myself..

We both need to drink a cup of chamomile, and chill...
We have divine love, i mean c'mon, man... let's try to take a deep breath and relax...

 I find difficult to allow my twin ,in my space, so much that i feel  nearly invaded or under attack...
 I have the feeling that he might mirror,some of what i am feeling...

I am not open to another, and yet he is always with me, so it's a strange paradox...
How did you get in here?

The answer is that he was there all along...

In that amniotic fluid,, there are the two of you, linked by an immortal bond, that is Love and wherever you are in this world, here is a connection above all, because you are One,

You were created as part of the One, half female half male. That cannot change...

One cannot exist without the other , in the spiritual realm..

We have to catch up with our soul..
We are so blind and young to this new identity and the understanding of what true Love really is, that we fight it with intellect, and fear....
Ultimately, we fight with ourselves...

I presume that beyond that connection, there is connection to a higher source known as God or Spirit, but first things first.
you have to awaken yourself to the twin ,and to yourself.
It seems we are very far away from Spirit....

For me, my error is always to try to focus my energy on myself, and not on the Soul.

In a way i have found out that i can be a little selfish,, when it comes to Love.

I don't trust, so i think depending on myself is safer; that way you know where you stand and no one can let you down... right? Wrong for twin flames...

I am not completely open and accepting ; it is as if i am wounded and believing that i must get on with life as it is, and fight my way out of the brambles alone, as if no one will fight with me.

I am thinking a bit tit for tat, well you get on with your life , i get on with mine, sort of things, but we are going nowhere...
You can't really escape your own self...

I  also feel some responsibility to help and fight for others, but it seems to cause disruption in the energy flow.

By taking on other's problems i deny my own life, and needs, and it causes delays ...
By focusing on helping others, it seems to gives me a purpose, and a reason to forget....
Forget what?
All of this caused by some invisible scars and pain, i am not fully aware of.....

 I feel i must sacrifice something of myself,, as i f i am bearing a great weight linked with guilt and shame.
 I am not allowed to be happy or have much, because other suffers..

To have much feels vulgar and inconsiderate...
But it's out of balance and context...
How can i reconcile the me , in this expanse of the universe.?
My twin flame has the knowledge i need to heal; within himself ,there are answers to who i am...
And within me , there is answers to who he is...

The concrete thing is that twin flame starts with yourself, but then, you must grow into another.person.
Their heart becomes your home...
.Like a branch that is now growing, to intertwine with another. But it is the same sacred tree....

 I am not spiritually completely open to that, and i know i must make some changes in my beliefs...

 I seem to judge everything on safety... Is it safe???

I am being over cautious, perhaps because i am afraid, but Spirit says to me be free, and be carefree when it comes to my beloved...

You must not feel burdened by false beliefs...
It is fine to admit to having emotions...
Saying i love you to your twin, is fine

It is not a sign of surrender or weakness....


Love is not a battlefield...

For me i nearly see a sign of admission, as surrender.
As if i he has gained,something, then i have lost.something..
that's not true...
That is not Divine Love...
Love does not hurt you,or deceives you...

I fear the loss of my self, and identity as if he would engulf everything that i am, and i would disappear...

But in the twin flame union , the truth is that on the contrary instead of loosing myself, it had the opposite effect, i found myself, in him.

This is a strange realization...
When all along you have been running away from it...
How can you run away from yourself , and knowing yourself?

 The soul is old, but our connection to it, is young and i feel still weary.as if walking on ice, i am walking very slowly, treading carefully.

I am over careful, when it comes to trusting this connection.. and that is not the right way of looking at it.
Once again the card of the hangman shows that we must look at things with fresh eyes...
And allow old  negative beliefs to fade away...

In Divine love, it seems that there is an element of risk, like with the fool card, when he is about to fall off the edge..


To fall in Love is, in  not to have control , it is giving in to your heart. You need to trust your heart.,.
and it can become overwhelming and scary..
You need to trust that the ice will hold...

You must jump and trust you will fall not on a bed of thorns, but a bed of roses...