This is when you realize that you are not listening to inner guidance, when you are planning what to eat first thing in the morning......
When you are running to the shops every minute of the day, spending all your money on food, expecting it will change your life...
Thinking i am going to have the perfect pantry, with the perfect health food, and then, i will be complete, happy and healthy...
NO.....Massive fail!
This idea that food is the key to having energy and happiness, is false, so why am i holding onto this lie?
I am in control, i can control what i eat.... Yes, that's what you say to yourself., as if control had anything to do with it?..
Then all the old habits resurface, but nothing really changes...
Same patterns, same results.... No energy...
Spirit has told me before, food is a mundane energy and yes, of course it affects your health, but it is a fairly easy decision to make., eat well and, live long...
That's common sense....
you do not need an Encyclopedia to make that decision....
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What we eat does not define who we are, when it comes to the soul itself.
We are not what we eat...
And so get out of the kitchen...
I am constantly trying to control what happens to me, because i pretty much think God helps those who help themselves...
I am not a damsel in distress waiting for a prince to rescue her, because i have lost faith that this could ever happen...
I am the one who's helping, not the one who accepts help, even though most of the time, i need it...
It's hard to be a woman.and admit you have your limits, it feels like admitting defeat if you can't do something, the world of man is tough for us women....
Sometimes you need a strong shoulder to cry on,and say it's ok...
I use to believe it is in the nature of man to be and do good, but channeling my spiritual gifts, i have to come to term that a belief does not make it real.
Truth is only absolute, when you speak of higher dimensions...
Divine Love is not something especially common here.in the 3D realm;
actually it is an impossibility in mathematics, that Love energy inhabit the 3 dimensions...
It belongs to the 4th and 5th D of pure light...
There are parts of the world where it is actually absent...
Love is light., yes....
And so without light, there is darkness...
When a tree is being cut down there, is no silver lining, it is gone forever, only a void remains;,you can't sugar coat it...
The light of our world, is dying...
Our human paradigm of greed is ultimately cruel . It is based around survival, and even though some decent people are trying to make a difference, human beings take more than they give.. that is a sad fact...
Since starting this twin flame journey, i have battled with my own perceptions, and my own beliefs..
I think i am an optimist at heart, but sometimes optimism can also be perceived as naivety...
The society i want to live in, has become an utopia..
and yes there was a time when man thought that one individual could make a difference...
I don't know if i believe that anymore...
And every time i am put back in my place, it's like being slapped in the face i have to take another look, and i end up with a more rational and realistic view of our world...
Also colder...
But not all is gloom, thank god...
The card for twin flame for this month of August, is the Hangman going onto the Fool in September...
The tarot card of the Hangman is about needing to look at things with fresh eyes, from a different point of view. It is also an advice that we may be approaching a situation with certain prejudice,
It's about breaking free from the beliefs that holds us back, and uncover truth...
We are asked to keep a cool head and use our intellect...
It is the card of logical thoughts.
We understand that our inaction is our own choice; The power for action rest with us, we are the one able to make choices and take decisions...
We are also asked to challenge our beliefs and ideas ,even if they have become comfortable over time...
We may feel, we use to rely on those false beliefs in the past ,but now they serve us no longer;
they are dated, no longer applicable...
if we got accustomed to a certain way things got done, These things are in the past, and we must grow in order to be in touch with reality. we must live in the present,
We need to realize that we must look again, that we may have missed something...
Perhaps we may even feel that it represented who we are, when this is false, in fact; it is just a mask...
we must peel off the layers ,in order to find what is true...
The hangman is about receiving information and allowing this flow, of new ideas, to energize us...
It is also a red flag warning us that we are out of balance..
In order to regain this balance, we literally need to see the world upside down, It is about not falling back into old negative habits ,and free ourselves from false doctrines,
It is saying if you are in an uncomfortable situation, you can get out of it, if you see ,what might be right there, under your nose..
It is about seeing what is real, not an illusion...
Food does not manifest anything real when it comes to the soul..
You cannot recharge the Spiritual body with food..
Food is of the mundane energy, valuable only to the physical shell. But essential to life...
Of course it is our responsibility to nourish the body well, so that it functions properly. But the physical body and its energy field does not influence the Soul.
The material world is ruled by matters that do not apply to the Spiritual body.
Where the human mind is limited, the spiritual body is not..
The spiritual energy that rules over creativity and luck, is fueled by the energy called Love.
Only love can fuel and heal all 5 bodies ,as a whole.
Energy affects all 5 bodies but there 3 main ones; the physical body, intellectual body, emotional body.
We all have them, it is the three dimensional world as we know it...
The etheric body and the spiritual body form the two less well-known energy fields...
Not everyone has them, as they literally have to grow, according to awareness, and light...
The 3rd, 4th and 5th dimensions in mathematics , are represented by the Metatron cube...
As i widen my understanding of twin flames, i have found out, that the relationship between twins is very much spiritual. first, it stars from the inside out, like a flower...
I think there is very little interest in my twin ,to relate to me through food. He sees it as a mundane and common thing ...
He seems to have no interest in that, at all..
If i made him Sushi, i think he would eat it, but it's not in a true sense, a way to relate to one another and share energy,
It would seem that we would defy the purpose of our union, to remain at a level of only communicating through the everyday..
I feel that the union is dealing with high vibrations, which are of the spiritual and divine spheres..
To bring down the connection ,would not serve either of us...
My twin feels like an all, or nothing kind of person.... True spiritual love or nothing....
Because of the energy between the masculine and the feminine, i am able to read the collective, which is the Soul..
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It is like if there is constant connection going on, even though you may feel disconnected at times..
You are only disconnected with yourself.
The twin template is permanent...
And so it brings me to ask what is the purpose of a twin flame union.?
On one side the feminine energy, and on the other side the masculine, both One of the same soul...
The vibrations there, are elements of light, And this light seems to carry information similar to fiber optic.
When i have a dream or a revelation about Spirit, it is because there is a sort of electricity, that flows through us, that i can read...
Each set of twin flame has their own characteristics, and are unique....
By reading the energy field you might be able to connect fully to your twin flame, and know things about them and how they feel about you, and they are a real living person.
Those traits of character are unique to my twin..
There does not seem to be a collective field of energy or i am unable to perceive it, beyond my connection at this point...
Perhaps because the energy is still young, it feels further away in space and time...
I do have perception of the departed and other human beings, in this light highway., but not living twins...
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I feel my beloved much more, than any other beings; but there is so much work to be done between us....
Our amniotic fluid is not clear, not void of problems; many emotional problems and barriers need to be overcome...
But there is Love, unconditional, and unwavering; both of us have access to that light, equally.
Because we love each other, without judgment at the soul level...
It is the purest form of energy, that we have both access to...
On the material plane, it seems that we are both very immature with our alignment to one another...
I can drop in vibration very easily, as if i am yet to get use to something else being there,, someone else...
I am nearly territorial when it comes to my sphere, sometimes i don't trust or understand that he is also one with me..
I feel that i can be very defensive, when it comes to my own space, and that i am fiercely independent....
I am not willing to bring down my barriers, and i stand my ground, by fear of loosing a imaginary battle...
I have seen it, i am at war with my twin, as i am at war with myself..
We both need to drink a cup of chamomile, and chill...
We have divine love, i mean c'mon, man... let's try to take a deep breath and relax...
I find difficult to allow my twin ,in my space, so much that i feel nearly invaded or under attack...
I have the feeling that he might mirror,some of what i am feeling...
I am not open to another, and yet he is always with me, so it's a strange paradox...
How did you get in here?
The answer is that he was there all along...
In that amniotic fluid,, there are the two of you, linked by an immortal bond, that is Love and wherever you are in this world, here is a connection above all, because you are One,
You were created as part of the One, half female half male. That cannot change...
One cannot exist without the other , in the spiritual realm..
We have to catch up with our soul..
We are so blind and young to this new identity and the understanding of what true Love really is, that we fight it with intellect, and fear....
Ultimately, we fight with ourselves...
I presume that beyond that connection, there is connection to a higher source known as God or Spirit, but first things first.
you have to awaken yourself to the twin ,and to yourself.
It seems we are very far away from Spirit....
For me, my error is always to try to focus my energy on myself, and not on the Soul.
In a way i have found out that i can be a little selfish,, when it comes to Love.
I don't trust, so i think depending on myself is safer; that way you know where you stand and no one can let you down... right? Wrong for twin flames...
I am not completely open and accepting ; it is as if i am wounded and believing that i must get on with life as it is, and fight my way out of the brambles alone, as if no one will fight with me.
I am thinking a bit tit for tat, well you get on with your life , i get on with mine, sort of things, but we are going nowhere...
You can't really escape your own self...
I also feel some responsibility to help and fight for others, but it seems to cause disruption in the energy flow.
By taking on other's problems i deny my own life, and needs, and it causes delays ...
By focusing on helping others, it seems to gives me a purpose, and a reason to forget....
Forget what?
All of this caused by some invisible scars and pain, i am not fully aware of.....
I feel i must sacrifice something of myself,, as i f i am bearing a great weight linked with guilt and shame.
I am not allowed to be happy or have much, because other suffers..
To have much feels vulgar and inconsiderate...
But it's out of balance and context...
How can i reconcile the me , in this expanse of the universe.?
My twin flame has the knowledge i need to heal; within himself ,there are answers to who i am...
And within me , there is answers to who he is...
The concrete thing is that twin flame starts with yourself, but then, you must grow into another.person.
Their heart becomes your home...
.Like a branch that is now growing, to intertwine with another. But it is the same sacred tree....
I am not spiritually completely open to that, and i know i must make some changes in my beliefs...
I seem to judge everything on safety... Is it safe???
I am being over cautious, perhaps because i am afraid, but Spirit says to me be free, and be carefree when it comes to my beloved...
You must not feel burdened by false beliefs...
It is fine to admit to having emotions...
Saying i love you to your twin, is fine
It is not a sign of surrender or weakness....
Love is not a battlefield...
For me i nearly see a sign of admission, as surrender.
As if i he has gained,something, then i have lost.something..
that's not true...
That is not Divine Love...
Love does not hurt you,or deceives you...
I fear the loss of my self, and identity as if he would engulf everything that i am, and i would disappear...
But in the twin flame union , the truth is that on the contrary instead of loosing myself, it had the opposite effect, i found myself, in him.
This is a strange realization...
When all along you have been running away from it...
How can you run away from yourself , and knowing yourself?
The soul is old, but our connection to it, is young and i feel still weary.as if walking on ice, i am walking very slowly, treading carefully.
I am over careful, when it comes to trusting this connection.. and that is not the right way of looking at it.
Once again the card of the hangman shows that we must look at things with fresh eyes...
And allow old negative beliefs to fade away...
In Divine love, it seems that there is an element of risk, like with the fool card, when he is about to fall off the edge..
To fall in Love is, in not to have control , it is giving in to your heart. You need to trust your heart.,.
and it can become overwhelming and scary..
You need to trust that the ice will hold...
You must jump and trust you will fall not on a bed of thorns, but a bed of roses...
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