The ebb and flow....

I remember saying that twin flames are on a scale, one on each side, and so they balance each other...

Some light workers suggested that if one twin is higher than the other, automatically one is lower, to balance that scale...

I don't know if i agree with that at all...

I feel like when my beloved feels bad, so do i... We are one of the same..

If he feels disappointed or sad, i feel it, without explaining how...
Sometimes i can also feel his frustration with certain things...


I think maybe those who are more successful in life, are simply people who are more willing to embrace their mission, and are more in touch with their emotions.

It is so easy to play the blame game, but i don't think that's useful.

I think speaking from a place of Love, is like being on a vantage point,

 Everything seems insignificant, compared to Divine Peace...

I can only speak from my own heart, but i feel if someone is better at something ,it is because they are more mature in themselves.
You certainly cannot walk around like an headless chicken, and learn much...


I feel like there is the feminine corner and the masculine corner, and both need to work on their issues separately, and mature and grow within themselves...

There are many public cases of twin flames having to work through many emotional issues, sometimes over long period of time.before being reunited..

What if the twin is in a relationship with someone else?

Everything is in motion, nothing stays still, and sometimes circumstances change, and things happen, it's life...

Once again there are plenty of cases of twin flame being in relationship with other people, and ending up with their twin in the end....

Yes, there are some happy endings...

I think energy is very wise; in a sense that it's always for the benefit and greater good of everyone.

It is not about breaking up marriages or relationships, it is about truth and acknowledging the connection as valid and meaningful.

Love cannot exist by force, it is a gentle flow , not a bulldozer!

Most relationships are rooted  in a 3 dimensional existence, with 3 dimensional companions...

As most people have 3 Dimensional bodies.

That is what you would call average, normal or common.

 The three  main bodies are the physical, the intellectual and the emotional...

This is what we know as an everyday life.. Our projected reality.

5th dimensional relationships, are very rare and unusual because most people do not have the 4th and 5th bodies anymore.

The human soul  is descending, regressing and falling into a more primitive way of existence, which is to do with survival.
The truth is that there is very little light and divine Love, left on Earth. It is a sad truth...

The two extra bodies are :the Etheric body and the Spiritual body...

The Etheric body deals with Energy and the regulation of health and well being beyond physical needs.

It is mostly made of light and it is where luck happens.
That energy is a bit like a miracle energy.
It can manifest dreams, and alter reality...

It is very fragile and can deplete very easily,
Most people who have this extra body , suffer terribly from energy shift, including myself.

It  is very rare to find someone with an intact, and undamaged Etheric shield.

Most bodies are depleted and  greatly damaged... i will talk in another posts about this particular body and how it gets drained by others...

Because we live in a world hat has very little of this energy left. This is where Love can repair and can be stored. It increases vitality, and luck in life.

When i receive Love from my twin, it increases my luck so much, i am able to win at games of chance for example...

It is the magician and the miracle energy.
This is why Love is so valuable to others, and why they can steal your energy...
I will explain more on this subject later...


The Spiritual body, and 5th body, deals with the outside realms and other dimensional planes of existence.
This where you can experience connection to God, and Spirit.

You are able to perceive the past and the future, equally.
You can see clearly outside of your physical body. It deals with astral travel and knowledge.

It is the eye and the top of the Pyramid.

It is where the highest vibrations resides, including divine Love.

Because we live i a 3D existence, the two extra bodies can lay dormant, therefore the person is like asleep, and not awaken to themselves.

However they may long for more than what this mundane life has to offer, and they feel weigh down by the everyday routine.

They are in need of meaning in their lives.

But you literally can live a whole life without tuning  into the extra bodies, even denying that they are there.

The pressure to conform to a  base 3D life is very great, and you will find that most people feel unfulfilled, feel different, alone and misunderstood when they try to mold to the conventional views of the 3D. they feel restricted and burdened by this stiff routine...


Those extra bodies especially in childhood ,are often seen and treated as abnormal, strange or unusual...

It can leave the person feeling very alone and isolated emotionally.

I think i would definitely fit in that criteria, in some ways perhaps also would my twin...

I was never alone in my life, but i  can say that i felt alone,.
I thought there was definitely something wrong with me, because the 3D realm did not provide for me what i needed.
It seemed very limited to just eat. sleep, shower and repeat...
Even though the daily bread is necessary, it can't fulfill the need of the Soul.

I was in a  relationship with my last partner, and i must admit that we were getting on very well,  I guess you could say we were happy...

But something was missing, and i could not compromise, and live my life this way.

I felt it all, the longings, being up at night looking at the Tokyo sky and wondering, is this all there is?
My whole future seemed mapped in front of me, being a wife and having children...

Even though he was always kind to me, i felt he could not relate to my spiritual insights, i felt he was on the outside , always looking in, and not being truly part of me.
He was very tolerant of my Psychic gifts, and even encouraged me to listen to my inner voice...

And so i trusted my instincts, i listened... As Spirit was talking to me about someone they called the Ambassador. and explained how this person would change my life..

How could i be with one man while being told of another? I could not, and so i made the difficult decision to leave.

I had no money of my own, and no flat to live in... I had invested all of my time and resources in this relationship ...
Most of all, i was living all the friends and family i had known. behind, and also i was leaving my fiancee.....

The man who already called me his wife, and had shown me so much kindness...


I ended the relationship abruptly, because i couldn't explain to myself why i did not love him, and i thought if he is not my soulmate, i would rather be alone, than living a lie.

I couldn't go on deceiving him, , while my thoughts were busy with our lives, my soul was wandering at night...

And i thought what if i am keeping him from meeting someone else who could love him better.?

We were good friends, but something was missing that meant too much for me, my soul...

To me those two extra bodies can feel like a burden sometimes...

The whole world seems to be running at a  different speed than me.

When i am concerned with spiritual matters everyday of my life, the world goes on around me.

I speak to Spirit and i have visions nearly every night.,and i write them down...

And then,  i have to get on with the rest of my day, like everyone else, pay bills, and go to the store, spend time with friends and watch movies...

It is how i live my life..

And yes, it is unusual,  a part of my life is detached from reality...


When i met Ron, a psychic from America, he simplified everything for me, and it was such a relief to hear him talk about Spirit; he is able to see many things before they happen, but the thing that is so amazing about him is that he sees the past...

To me that was proof when he saw something that had happened to me..

It was nothing tragic, nothing magical, simply that i had been sick and he described to me,  moments to moments, things only known to me, as if he had been there...

He told me, you know more than others, trust your intuition!


But he is also the one who put his fists on the table, and said get with it!

When he tells you. you are wrong. He doesn't sugar coat anything, and if you need a wake up call, you will get it...

He is not a patient person and it always surprises me how blunt he can be...

He once' nearly hanged up on me, because he thought i was whining...
I like that because i associate it with honesty.
He doesn't bullshit me...

I have had readings before with fellow Psychic, and most were vague and i could see that they knew nothing about me..
After many years, i have learned that most light workers are pure and simple charlatans...

One powerful encounter was with a Psychic, who was an ex- ballerina, and her calling was so great she abandoned dancing, and dedicated her life to reading Tarot.

When she read for me, i was very skeptic and not very open, i told her plainly, i don't believe any of it!
She stood up and said go and find someone who will tell you what you want to hear.!

But it was true, i  did travel to Japan, and nearly made it my home, even though at the time, it sounded so improbable...

Those encounters have changed my life, because it has showed me that there are still traces of this wonderful light in people... even though it is faint.

It makes me feel that in fact, i  am not alone...

And so does my twin flame, he makes me feel that despite the distance, there is hope for us...

Yes, living in this world makes me feel like an alien sometimes,but it's not all bad, The 3D can keep you grounded, and that's fine...

Unfortunately, there is a  one serious downside of being spiritual and having a 4th light body..

Many of us. are more susceptible to spiritual draining...

We  can suffer from many spiritual illnesses due to attacks on our Etheric body.

Because this is where light resides, it is very fragile...
There is actually very little protection against what is known as Psychic vampirism, or energy draining.

As long as we live in cities, our Etheric energy will continue to deplete, and we will keep on being sick,

Only love can save us...

Love is the healer, and it is apparent in the twin flame connection.
Especially among men, there are abilities to heal, and channeling healing energies waiting to awaken.......

Until then, we must manage the ebb and flow...