The absolute connection....

You cannot be with another person, but the twin, once you are on this journey of union and reunion..

Spirit asked me in a dream, why him, why this one and not another?, what is so special about this one?

And i couldn't articulate anything coherent, I felt everything i was thinking about, was the wrong answer.

I felt like a child ,as if i knew nothing...

Here i was ,believing this man to be my twin flame and yet i didn't know why?
I could not find a reason...

It was not because of his appearance, or what he had said, or  any of his talents, where he came from,, or his personality..

I had lived my life, believing in fairy tales...
Watching movies, where the perfect guy, always says the perfect thing.. You had me at Hello!

No, it was as if everyone else, was just a shadow of him.
Like a memory i could not place...
That did not have a name, or a face...
It was just the knowing of this energy....
It was like the wind ...

Everything reminded me of him even though i did not know it, or who he was,
I was haunted by him...

I was drawn to everything that had his vibration, and i could see how long i had looked for him in other people ,without realizing it...

Everything had happened naturally, without me making conscious choices...
And i realized i had been led to him..

When i met my twin, i thought i was closing a door, not opening a door...
Everything had happened out of my control...

Love was something that happened to me...
I did not choose it...
I did not choose him...
That was the right answer...

The feminine is very much caught into a web of deceit ,when it comes to selecting  a suitable partner.
Meeting someone in a public place is probably the most common....
We are told go out and get a date!

Twin flames are often of different age, live very far apart in distance, and there are many things that difference them, like religion, race, nationality..
How do they fit in that social paradigm?

Our mind are being mapped with stories...
But they are not our own...

It's so true that our life gets influenced one way or another.by those stories...
..
And our beliefs end up being a projection of endless dramas, we see in movies...
Human beings are obsessed with drama and death...
Just turn on the TV...

I don't want to bash the feminine, but we have a responsibility to ourselves and the masculine to end those dramas...
We are writing the story of our lives...
W can not fill it with monsters and shadows....


The feminine needs to get to grip with the fact that No, actually the masculine twin does not need coaching on Love.

You have to put your trust in the masculine, that he will come round on his own.
He is like the  Tarot card, the Emperor...
He is a deep thinking knight, with deep convictions...

By trying to control the connection, you are tying to impose your will on him... telling him what he should or should not feel..

You cannot force anyone to love you...
 Love is not about force, actually it is the absence of it...

You end up trying to control the twin..
It will start a war...
That is a bad idea..

Never was love about war and division, it is about oneness, and peace...

You may be in charge of your own growth, and responsible for yourself, but you cannot tell the masculine what to do...

You are not in charge of this connection..
No one put the feminine in charge, especially, not Spirit.
You have equal responsibility in this relationship...

Simply release control, because you may be causing the masculine to have doubts, and stay away from you...

The connection is equal and mutual.

Each part of the soul has a job to do...
Allow the masculine to protect and support you,.as it is intended..

You may come to term, that you have very negative views on the masculine energy, most  of us will have stored it from the past...
Release them...

It is your responsibility to do the work, and clear those obstacles...
Whatever is on your side , clear it...

Whatever you have learned about the masculine energies, has been accumulated over time,.
If it did not come from the pure source of divine love...

It is like a corrupted file.

Delete it from your life...

If an energy comes to you distorted , it can unbalance you, get rid of it....

Fear is a very powerful oppressor. It represents what stands in the way, it is opposition..

When you fear the masculine power not to protect you, but to attack, and harm,
It lessens your ability to trust in yourself...

You might feel you have a lot of latent baggage, coming up to your attention. Look at it...

All of this is created by negative interactions, you may have had with men in general.

It will start with the father and grow from there...
There is also  a dark social energy of the masculine,

The violent archetype,  all of this heavy resonance, affects us all...

The feminine and masculine energies can become charged with negative aspects.

Violence is not felt as violence, but as fear...
The feminine may find herself fearing the masculine energies.

Fear is the enemy of love..

Where Love fills the cup, fear will empty it...

I believe that is why men and woman fight constantly, they are out of balance with themselves and others.

Twin flame is about healing this Paradigm, and so being in this connection will highlight the area where you might have issues

The feminine will blame the masculine for certain things that happened in their past, or even in the world...
They forget the masculine twin is always there to heal, and help...

No one is perfect , but the energy of love is to offer assistance,  Sometimes it is simply to hold your twin and comfort them.
Nothing is more comforting than your twin's touch, and kind words...


When it comes to twin flames, there is the right  person, and  then all the other men, who end up basically being, the wrong ones...
It is very transparent...

Spiritually. love cannot hurt you, you cannot be let down by love, or feel unsupported or misunderstood.

The masculine is only asking to be allowed to Love...
He wants to Love and feel love...
He is saying trust me....

The truth is that feminine, you are only one side of this twin energy.

There is no chance really knowing what the masculine wants to say, unless he says it...
Stop speculating on what he thinks, and allow him to tell you...


It is to understand that a relationship is two people not one, two energies and not one.

You cannot be in a relationship alone, so you need to include and integrate the masculine.

Perhaps that is the most respect and love, you can show the masculine,

Trust him to make the right choices for the connection.. Trust that he knows...

If you create negative vibrations, you will reap the reward of those choices...
Because your twin is a part of you, not separate  from you...

You are meant to join in Union and become One.

Love is the absolute connection...

Everything i knew...

This is what i realized, everything i have been told about twin flames, is total bullshit....

I think you cannot know something until you have lived it, and so i realized that people talk so much in the spiritual community,  they speculate endlessly, but they don't seem to really know....

There are so many charlatans out there, because Spirit has become such a lucrative business...
It's hard to tell who is genuine and who is not...

Well , that is not helpful to people who, like me, have many questions that are left unanswered...
The only thing left is to trust my intuition and inner voice..
And the direct messages i get from my own dreams and guidance...

For me, Spirit is not something to find in a book, or a faceless being i can turn to...
Spirit is energy and it affects my everyday life directly...

I have gone through huge changes in my health, and my creativity...
And i was painting more than ever  and feeling so inspired, and now after finding out that food is not energy, love is, i have found out that Art means nothing when it comes to twin flames...

All is an expression of me, and how i expand my own self,  but it's not about Love..
Art is not love...
And my twin doesn't really care about my Art...
It doesn't interest him, because this is not how we are meant to relate.to each other..

I have tried to focus my energy on myself, because ultimately i had problems believing that it was coming from my twin. I rationalized that it must definitely come from me...
That i must be mistaken...

And now i understand it's not so...
And for all those who said you can live without your twin in your life, that you can communicate through time and space, man you're wrong..
Those people cannot be in divine love...

Love is a real relationship, when two people are physically together, relating to each other, able to touch each other. Twin flames cannot relate through food or Art, or anything but to themselves.
Union means just that, Unity, of the masculine and the feminine as One...

Twin flames are a relationship that is no different in a way than any other
You have to be together physically, or it will cause one or both twins immense suffering and pain.
I understand now, the loss of suffering is when you are together, because the suffering is to be apart.

I think that is the punishment that we must endure to be separated from the one single person that is half of you...
Because you cannot tap into another person's energy at a distance, you can't really heal permanently..
The energy will fade eventually..

Energy flows through the twins when they are around each other and when they can communicate through physical contact...
I guess this why we are told we must suffer from our sins. God takes away what you love the most.
For me it was my twin... and the journey is about returning to oneness with him.

I think at some point in my life, i have said that i didn't need him, and i tried to manifest everything on my own without him, i think perhaps i may have been proud and rebellious...
 But one thing is for sure, i was so wrong..... but now i feel scared...

I have said many times, that i need to make me the focus of my life and i was wrong too. I don't think there is anything on Earth that i love more, or need more than my twin.
If you must live your life in truth and passion then he is mine...
I need his love, and i need his touch...

It sounds so ludicrous when people talk about twin flames and they say you can live apart from one another.
Oh yes, it's like being told to meditate and your dinner will appear in front of you, and if it doesn't , well it's your fault, you are not believing hard enough... That's crazy...

Spirit says, go to the shop and buy it, because that is the only thing that makes sense,We are flesh after all, and why would be denied food or water, when we need it to survive.
I need my twin's love and heat, and without it , i am dying in the cold, lacking energy and my health deteriorates very fast...
This is how it is for me, and it is frightening because i am alone with it... he is not here to heal and comfort me...
All i need is to be loved by him, but i am not in his arms...

Because to have his love is to be with him physically.
You do not have love if you are apart, because love is intimacy, and you can't make love at a distance...
So i miss his love....

Maybe so called spiritual people say Love is universal, and is everywhere and everything but i find it's not so...

There is very little of this energy left on Earth, that is why so many people are sick and the planet is so out of balance. I don't know why there is a tendency to sugar coat everything speaking to us as if we are children...

Twin flames is a relationship, between the masculine and the feminine. Actually everything is about a relationship to something or someone.

I am in exile from myself and my twin, and i think you get tormented for your sins, and it is not what you will do but what you have done, that matters...

There is nothing above divine love and there is nothing above the vessel that contains  this Love which is my beloved...
Love is the key to the prison... we are not here to learn, for we forget everything, we are here to find the key to our prison cell, and that is divine Love...

No food or piece of Art can love me, ever ...
When two people are intimate and are in a sexual relationship, then you can say that they are One...
Apart, they are only separate...

Twin flames don't relate through food, creation, or Art.they relate through Sexual union, because there is is nothing higher as a communication.

It is what they call the sacred marriage, when the feminine and masculine merge into one body and one soul.

So are twin flames, they are born to one another, not to live apart but to live together as One...
It's so obvious, in a way, but some lightworkers say, you are One divinely through the Ether......

No! Electricity passes through the physical body and the skin, if you cannot touch each other you don't have a relationship at all, that is a lie...
You cannot create life by thinking it, you cannot create a child at a distance, who came up with this ridiculous fantasy...
Energy is the same, it must manifest through the human body...


I feel abandoned by my twin, because i am not with him...
Love is not to be abandoned.... So i don't understand about many things..

I understand that by making myself the focus point of my life, i simply feel my own energy and i deplete, because i am not receiving anything, i am just using my own...
I am blocking the flow of love..

What i felt from him is the opposite, i received love and energy ,but i was wrong because i thought we could be apart and i could use the energy to further my own life, and that being apart didn't matter so much. We were One anyway...
I was very wrong..

We are not One because we are not in a relationship.... we have a connection, that's not the same...

I thought that there was no road that leads to us being together...
And that frightens me, because i need him, and i wish he wanted to have a relationship with me...
Understanding that, make me feel really sad, because i understand that i am abandoned...

In that sense i feel very much unloved and unwanted...
I ought to make him the focus of my life,because when i do that, i find myself, and everything flows properly...
But being One with him, is to know him,and that is manifested through the physical, so i am left in the cold..

If i could say one thing to my twin, it would be this, is that i am sorry,, i was walking in the wrong direction...
Is there any way back to being together?
I don't know....

But that is one thing i have learned, Twin flame communication is  primordially sexual, and physical.
It's not a story in a book, it is not a fiction....
Everything i knew, was bullshit....

Falling into old habits...

This is when you realize that you are not listening to inner guidance, when you are planning what to eat first thing in the morning......

When you are running to the shops every minute of the day, spending all your money on food, expecting it will change your life...

Thinking i am going to have the perfect pantry, with the perfect health food, and then, i will be complete, happy and healthy...

 NO.....Massive fail!


This idea that food is the key to having energy and happiness, is false, so why am i holding onto this lie?
I am in control, i can control what i eat.... Yes, that's what you say to yourself., as if control had anything to do with it?..

Then all the old habits resurface, but nothing really changes...
Same patterns, same results.... No energy...

Spirit has told me before, food is a mundane energy and yes, of course it affects your health, but it is a fairly easy decision to make., eat well and, live long...
That's common sense....
you do not need an Encyclopedia to make that decision....
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What we eat does not define who we are, when it comes to the soul itself.
We are not what we eat...

And so get out of the kitchen...

I am constantly trying to control what happens to me, because i pretty much think God helps those who help themselves...
I am not a damsel in distress waiting for a prince to rescue her, because i have lost faith that this could ever happen...

I am the one who's helping, not the one who accepts help, even though most of the time, i need it...

It's hard to be a woman.and admit you have your limits, it feels like admitting defeat if you can't do something, the world of man is tough for us women....
Sometimes you need a strong shoulder to cry on,and say it's ok...

I use to believe it is in the nature of man to be and do good, but channeling my spiritual gifts, i have to come to term that a belief does not make it real.

Truth is only absolute, when you speak of higher dimensions...

Divine Love is not something especially common here.in the 3D realm;
actually it is an impossibility in mathematics, that Love energy inhabit the 3 dimensions...
It belongs to the 4th and 5th D of pure light...

There are parts of the world where it is actually absent...

Love is light., yes....
And so without light, there is darkness...

When a tree is being cut down there, is no silver lining, it is gone forever, only a void remains;,you can't sugar coat it...

The light of our world, is dying...

Our human paradigm of greed is ultimately cruel .  It is based around survival, and even though some decent  people are trying to make a difference, human beings take more than they give.. that is a sad fact...


Since starting this twin flame journey, i have battled with my own perceptions, and my own beliefs..

I think i am an optimist at heart, but sometimes optimism can also be perceived as naivety...
The society i want to live in, has become an utopia..
and yes there was a time when man thought that one individual could make a difference...
I don't know if i believe that anymore...

And every time i am put back in my place, it's like being slapped in the face  i have to take another look, and i end up with a more rational and realistic view of our world...
Also colder...
But not all is gloom, thank god...

  The card for twin flame for this month of August, is the Hangman going onto the Fool in September...

The tarot card of  the Hangman is about needing to look at things with fresh eyes, from a different point of view. It is also an advice that we may be approaching a situation with certain prejudice,

It's about breaking free from the beliefs that holds us back, and uncover truth...

We are asked to keep a cool head and use our intellect...
It is the card of logical thoughts.

We understand that our inaction is our own choice; The power for action rest with us, we are the one able to make choices and take decisions...

 We are also asked to challenge our beliefs and ideas ,even if they have become comfortable over time...

We may feel, we use to rely on those false beliefs in the past ,but now they serve us no longer;
they are dated, no longer applicable...
if we got  accustomed to a certain way things got done,  These things are in the past, and we must grow in order to be in touch with reality. we must live in the present,


We need to realize that we must look again, that we may have missed something...

Perhaps we may even feel that it represented who we are, when this is false, in fact; it is just a mask...
we must peel off  the layers ,in order to find what is true...

The hangman is about receiving information and allowing this flow, of new ideas, to energize us...

 It is also a red flag warning us that we are out of balance..


In order to regain this balance, we literally need to see the world upside down, It is about not falling back into old negative habits ,and free ourselves from false doctrines,

It is saying if you are in an uncomfortable situation, you can get out of it, if you see ,what might be right there, under your nose..
It is about seeing what is real, not an illusion...



Food does not manifest anything real when it comes to the soul..

You cannot recharge the Spiritual body with food..

Food is of the mundane energy, valuable only to the physical shell. But essential to life...

Of course it is our responsibility to nourish the body well, so that it functions properly. But the physical body and its energy field does not influence the Soul.

The material world is ruled by matters that do not apply to the Spiritual body.

Where the human mind is limited, the spiritual body is not..

The spiritual energy that rules over creativity and luck, is fueled by the energy called Love.
Only love can fuel and heal all 5 bodies ,as a whole.

Energy affects all 5 bodies but there 3 main ones; the physical body, intellectual body, emotional body.
We all have them, it is the three dimensional world as we know it...

The  etheric body and the spiritual body form the two less well-known energy fields...
Not everyone has them, as they literally have to grow, according to awareness, and light...

The 3rd, 4th and 5th dimensions in mathematics , are represented by the  Metatron cube...

As i widen my understanding of twin flames, i have found out, that the relationship between twins is very much spiritual. first, it stars from the inside out, like a flower...

I think there is very little interest in my twin ,to relate to me through food. He sees it as a mundane and common thing ...

He seems to have no interest in that, at all..


If i made him Sushi, i think he would eat it, but it's not in a true sense, a way to relate to one another and share energy,

It would seem that we would defy the purpose of our union, to remain at a level of only communicating through the everyday..

I feel that the union is dealing with high vibrations, which are of the spiritual and divine spheres..
To bring down the connection ,would not serve either of us...

My twin feels like an all, or nothing kind of person.... True spiritual  love or nothing....

Because of the energy between the masculine and the feminine, i am able to read the collective, which is the Soul..
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It is like if there is constant connection going on, even though you may feel disconnected at times..
You are only disconnected with yourself.
The twin template is permanent...


And so it brings me to ask what is the purpose of a twin flame union.?

On one side the feminine energy, and on the other side the masculine, both One of the same soul...

 The vibrations there, are elements of light, And this light seems to carry information similar to fiber optic.

When i have a dream or a revelation about Spirit, it is because there is  a sort of electricity, that flows through us, that i can read...

 Each set of twin flame has their own characteristics, and are unique....

By reading the energy field you might be able to connect fully to your twin flame, and know things about them and how they feel about you, and they are a real living person.

Those traits of character are unique to my twin..

There does not seem to be a collective field of energy or i am unable to perceive it, beyond my connection at this point...

Perhaps because the energy is still young, it feels further away in space and time...

I do have perception of the departed and other human beings, in this light highway., but not living twins...
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I feel my beloved much more, than any other beings; but there is so much work to be done between us....

Our amniotic fluid is not clear, not void of problems;  many emotional problems and barriers need to be  overcome...

But there is Love, unconditional, and unwavering; both of us have access to that light, equally.

Because we love each other, without judgment at the soul level...
It is the purest form of energy, that we have both access to...

On the material plane, it seems that we are both very immature with our alignment to one another...

I can drop in vibration very easily, as if i am yet to get use to something else being there,, someone else...

I am nearly territorial when it comes to my sphere, sometimes i don't trust or understand that he is also one with me..

I feel that i can be very defensive, when it comes to my own space, and that i am fiercely independent....

I am not willing to bring down my barriers, and i stand my ground, by fear of loosing a imaginary battle...

I have seen it, i am at war with my twin, as i am at war with myself..

We both need to drink a cup of chamomile, and chill...
We have divine love, i mean c'mon, man... let's try to take a deep breath and relax...

 I find difficult to allow my twin ,in my space, so much that i feel  nearly invaded or under attack...
 I have the feeling that he might mirror,some of what i am feeling...

I am not open to another, and yet he is always with me, so it's a strange paradox...
How did you get in here?

The answer is that he was there all along...

In that amniotic fluid,, there are the two of you, linked by an immortal bond, that is Love and wherever you are in this world, here is a connection above all, because you are One,

You were created as part of the One, half female half male. That cannot change...

One cannot exist without the other , in the spiritual realm..

We have to catch up with our soul..
We are so blind and young to this new identity and the understanding of what true Love really is, that we fight it with intellect, and fear....
Ultimately, we fight with ourselves...

I presume that beyond that connection, there is connection to a higher source known as God or Spirit, but first things first.
you have to awaken yourself to the twin ,and to yourself.
It seems we are very far away from Spirit....

For me, my error is always to try to focus my energy on myself, and not on the Soul.

In a way i have found out that i can be a little selfish,, when it comes to Love.

I don't trust, so i think depending on myself is safer; that way you know where you stand and no one can let you down... right? Wrong for twin flames...

I am not completely open and accepting ; it is as if i am wounded and believing that i must get on with life as it is, and fight my way out of the brambles alone, as if no one will fight with me.

I am thinking a bit tit for tat, well you get on with your life , i get on with mine, sort of things, but we are going nowhere...
You can't really escape your own self...

I  also feel some responsibility to help and fight for others, but it seems to cause disruption in the energy flow.

By taking on other's problems i deny my own life, and needs, and it causes delays ...
By focusing on helping others, it seems to gives me a purpose, and a reason to forget....
Forget what?
All of this caused by some invisible scars and pain, i am not fully aware of.....

 I feel i must sacrifice something of myself,, as i f i am bearing a great weight linked with guilt and shame.
 I am not allowed to be happy or have much, because other suffers..

To have much feels vulgar and inconsiderate...
But it's out of balance and context...
How can i reconcile the me , in this expanse of the universe.?
My twin flame has the knowledge i need to heal; within himself ,there are answers to who i am...
And within me , there is answers to who he is...

The concrete thing is that twin flame starts with yourself, but then, you must grow into another.person.
Their heart becomes your home...
.Like a branch that is now growing, to intertwine with another. But it is the same sacred tree....

 I am not spiritually completely open to that, and i know i must make some changes in my beliefs...

 I seem to judge everything on safety... Is it safe???

I am being over cautious, perhaps because i am afraid, but Spirit says to me be free, and be carefree when it comes to my beloved...

You must not feel burdened by false beliefs...
It is fine to admit to having emotions...
Saying i love you to your twin, is fine

It is not a sign of surrender or weakness....


Love is not a battlefield...

For me i nearly see a sign of admission, as surrender.
As if i he has gained,something, then i have lost.something..
that's not true...
That is not Divine Love...
Love does not hurt you,or deceives you...

I fear the loss of my self, and identity as if he would engulf everything that i am, and i would disappear...

But in the twin flame union , the truth is that on the contrary instead of loosing myself, it had the opposite effect, i found myself, in him.

This is a strange realization...
When all along you have been running away from it...
How can you run away from yourself , and knowing yourself?

 The soul is old, but our connection to it, is young and i feel still weary.as if walking on ice, i am walking very slowly, treading carefully.

I am over careful, when it comes to trusting this connection.. and that is not the right way of looking at it.
Once again the card of the hangman shows that we must look at things with fresh eyes...
And allow old  negative beliefs to fade away...

In Divine love, it seems that there is an element of risk, like with the fool card, when he is about to fall off the edge..


To fall in Love is, in  not to have control , it is giving in to your heart. You need to trust your heart.,.
and it can become overwhelming and scary..
You need to trust that the ice will hold...

You must jump and trust you will fall not on a bed of thorns, but a bed of roses...

Whatever happens, it is just love....

I think that if you try to manipulate energies, you are not going to get the results that you want...

Love does not respond well to control, so it won't help to try to understand everything, only to remember that it is only Love...

When it comes to the Divine feminine, we often feel challenged..

We can ask ourselves a thousand questions, why him and not another one? what is so special about this person, and what is the fascination with them?

When the whole world is full of interesting people, that you meet everyday..

Why wait for the Mr right, when you can be with Mr right now?

Trying to rationalize your feelings, is not about knowing, but rather accepting the love that is being offered ,without any kind of specific conditions..

Accepting love for what it is, Energy, is the most difficult thing to do for the feminine ,because we can be stuck in behaviors or patterns of judgment of ourselves or the beloved...

Love does not judge, but accept things how they are...

It is to acknowledge that you are loved rather than wasting your time, loving and giving, and going against current...

I noticed that trying to push things is not right, because you get exhausted that way..

Trying to push things out for the feminine is like giving birth before the baby is fully grown. Love is like a child that is growing slowly and needs nurturing, sheltering, and time...

You cannot obtain anything by force... Love is ,or it is not...

It is a simple truth...

Even if you are not physically with the twin flame, there will be Angelic signs and manifestations that are not easy to explain.

Faith means to trust your heart..

I have noticed that there is a battle between the mind and the heart,...

We judge the heart to be irrational and the mind to be rational . you can not be told that you are in love, you just feel it, and then well..

If you don't trust it, you will never truly achieve surrender...

So you need to trust....

What is different with the twin flame template, is that it improves your ability to see truth, and your creativity surges as a response...

There is an absolute clarity of who you are, where you are going and what you are suppose to be doing in life...

It is like discovering your true purpose...

It is a huge reaction, to the feminine and the masculine colliding like Fire and Ice...

What is left is flowing waters...

I have noticed certain traits, in my twin that is his essence, and something unique to him.... 

I have had a lot of energy around protection and the energy of needing to feel safe... 

It is as if the energy of my twin is concerned about my safety and well being, and offers protection...

I felt it very strongly when i was in Norway, perhaps it was the most powerful energy that i felt.

I felt as if i was shielded, i often call Norway my shield...

Romantic love comes later in a way, after creation and protection.

I did not feel romantic with my twin flame at first, i felt more confused, and in need of explanations...
It is like working from the inside out...
And it challenges what we believe about romance altogether...

The twin flame energy is always in flux, shifting from one side to the other...
From the masculine to the feminine and vice-versa...

Ice is becoming a very powerful energy for me, as a protective barrier...

I have also started to work with Runic symbols that seem to cause some awareness in me .

It is like if light is being applied to areas of my life that needs sorting out, or needs looking at.

Nothing is left in the shadows,or in the dark, and so it brings great healing to me and my soul, without being able to express why all this is happening, but it feels like a great blessing..
Most of the work happens on the subconscious level...

I feel like the fish that is being hooked but i need not to be afraid,, i cannot swim against it, or i will get hurt, i need to allow myself to be pulled gently and trust that everything will be OK...

Whatever happens it is just Love....

In a spiritual Oneness, i need to honor my heart and his...

And remember that i am the woman he loves, and accept just the energy of that love in my everyday life...

Accepting love is the most challenging part of your learning process...

Because i am not with my twin flame, sometimes i feel that he does not care, and is busy with the material world, while his body is busy doing one thing, his soul is busy doing another...

We can come up with this judgement about our beloved , and asking why are they so blind to their own soul and so lost away from us

 My twin flame can appear disconnected from himself, but he is never truly disconnected from me...

But we have to be gentle and kind, because love is being offered to us, we must be in our own truth, and try to remain there...

Understanding that we are loved...

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I feel like when i am not communicating with my twin and living my life, i miss him, and so some communication must occur between us somehow...

Lately, i have woken up and said out loud, i miss him, as if it just occurred to me, as if it was new to me..

I never allowed myself to feel that i missed him, and that statement felt so strange and almost foreign..

I have been feeling surrounded by his energy and did not have any reason to feel that i missed him.

On the contrary i had so much more health, energy and creativity and spiritual growth. I felt genuinely filled with light and his love..

But recently i have felt i am missing him, in a different way...

I don't know if he feels the same emotional wave as me...

I wish my twin was more open to me, and could discuss things honestly with me..

I guess i wish he was more present and more aware...
It has become more obvious that it is his energy that is surrounding me and not someone else's...

Because twins are unique, they cannot be replaced by another person, there is a Oneness,

There are places and special moments, that can only be shared with them... .

And so perhaps there is a part of you that is unknown, and undiscovered on the material and spiritual plane...

For example New York City is one of the place that is important to me and my twin, as is Venice, London, and Oslo...

Are those resonances of the past or the future? we cannot tell, or are they just other dimension of existence, parallel to this One...

I do not know... But Love permeates all... Whatever happens, it is Divine Love...

Like a seed it needs flowing water to grow....

Resistance in twin flames...

I would like to speak a little about resistance in twin flames and what happens when one or both twins are resisting Union...

The connection is a bit like a scale, there is the masculine on one side and the feminine on the other, As nothing in the Universe which is Divine is divided, there is Oneness between the female part of the soul and the male.
Division is only an illusion between the two people involved in a twin flame relationship.
But on the physical plane, it is a reality . when the twins are apart they do not grow as much and cannot create Love and merge entirely.  Being together is ideal, but many obstacles stand in the way...

The Universe responds to both man and woman equally, but the Soul always strives towards Union.

There could be a great unbalance between twins.
Like a scale or a wheel, one twin can be higher than the other, sometimes much higher....
This creates all sorts of problems and makes it difficult for the couple to get together, on the physical plane.

The twin that seems to have more than the other is called the Dominant twin.
Those people, have more status, and more material manifestations, than the lower twin.

The lower twin  or watcher twin, is often someone who has been wounded emotionally to the point where they do not value their own lives.
They might have been murdered in past lives, or gone through ordeals in their present lives, where they felt life was not worth living.

They may suffer from a martyr syndrome, and see themselves as victims,choosing to suffer and live in miserable conditions, and asking themselves why bad things always happens to them.
They struggle with low self esteem, and self worth.
And in fact ,they might have been victims of  real crime, or abuse at some point in their lives.

On the plus side, they are often loving people who are always willing to help. They are selfless and altruist to a point of disregarding their own material reality.
They are often dreamers, and idealists that are not very good at keeping their feet on the ground.
They also are often spiritual and kind heated. genuine but shy and over sensitive...

Those people need to be brought out of their shell, and learn to value themselves more.
If they often feel that love is a struggle, or means suffering, loss and sadness, they must realize the truth, that Love is about healing...
Love is joy and light, and they must learn to affirm that truth...

Most of the people who fall in this category are female because they are willing to sacrifice themselves in order to give the masculine enough energy to climb the social ladder and generate financial gain and success.
They always put themselves second and allow people to drain energy from them leaving them exhausted and drained....
They need to learn how to stand up for themselves, and learn that they too are valued and loved...
Because they self sabotage and live in self denial, they are called the watcher twin, as they watch the world go by without living in it...
They contemplate and meditate, because they are afraid to join the flow of the living..
Fear is their biggest obstacle...

On the other side, the dominant masculine can become trapped in their material reality and Ego, and be as blind to spiritual truth.as a bat.
They are not willing or unable to listen to their heart.
They tend to analyse everything mentally or psychologically, and not really see the entire picture.
They judge and analyse everything and everyone..
They tend to spend time on details rather than expanding to the next level.of consciousness, and be open to the soul.
They can appear cold, and they can become conceited, and vain.

Having so much energy in their corner, mean they are able to demand a lot from others, and they can feel somehow entitled, and love adulation, and praises...
They are not able to understand how other see them, and don't deal well with criticism.
They do not see that their success is caused by their twin self- sacrifice.
They do not understand that the energy has to come from somewhere, they believe they are in charge and that the power rest with them.
They can hurt their twin by their ignorance and callousness.

On the positive side, they are very good with small details that bore everyone else, and are dependable, and generous...
They are blessed with a sharp intellect, and are good with practical matters..
They may also be good with finances, and are very reliable and punctual...

Being so unbalanced the twins have very little opportunity to meet, or socialize as they are always very apart from each other physically.

Both archetypes are present in the soul and equally those traits will be seen in both man and woman...
They are One and so they will act upon both extreme at different point in their lives...

One keep the other in check and vise-versa, they grow and learn from one another...
There is a constant exchange of energy between the man and woman, even when they are apart...

When the twin energy manifest Divine Love, it enlightens the whole soul, but only the one that has eyes can perceive that change, and so the one who is more receptive will feel those changes more intensely.
It will be more gradual when it comes to the sleeping twin...
One is awake and one is asleep, the twin that cannot see truth and light. in his conscious mind is asleep or blind....

However, the manifestation in the dominant masculine energy will be more sudden, and trey might experience losses, as they experienced success... Suddenly!
Some twins can become bankrupt, or loose abilities, status, respect, or reputation, also it affects their relationships with others, all can happens very quickly...

The connection is about harmony, so the energy, will shift to reestablishing balance in both twins, Meaning the one who is at the bottom will start to ascend materially and gain recognition, success, and praise.

While the twin at the top will start to fall and might be experiencing loss a some point whether material, physical or emotionally. everything is in a state of change, for both twin's benefit.

Also the dominant twin may have many nightmares or find difficult to sleep...
They may suddenly feel that something is missing in their lives, without being able to explain why...
They may feel a shift in their energy levels, and might become sick or tired more easily...

The dominant twin must regain balance, by learning humility, and becoming more spiritual, and accept truths and listen to his heart...

The lesser twin must learn to succeed, and accept financial and emotional fulfillment.

They must learn to trust that money is not the root of all evil, and that having does not mean the loss of innocence.
They must regain balance physically and allow material reality, to manifest in a positive way.

Both twins must open themselves to the connection, and each other...

Only when the balance is regained can they finally meet, and manifest partnership, and Union.

It is true that twin flames who are at the same level, achieve Union quicker and easier than those who are unbalanced, but because of the Paradigm of the world we live in, men tend to still be slightly higher than women ....

It is for the sake of the Soul that changes occur, to allow love to blossom....

When the masculine and the feminine meet and merge, all the differences between them vanishes, and only separation could have taught them about being together..

They do not oppose but compliment each other.
When one has a weakness, it is only to find, it is a strength in the other...
It is all about healing and love, resisting is not an option....

Love is like the skeleton key that opens all doors....
A door will not open by force, when truth is the lock...

Both twin flames must learn to honor their connection and each other...

Reality vs fantasy....

 I realized that i may be attracting the wrong type of attention, and so i would like to raise a red flag of caution.....
There is a wide line ,between fantasy and reality, that people must be aware of.

We live in a society that embrace the concept of celebrity, as it is normal thing...
 Many of us invite TV in our living room ,every night  unaware of the negative impact it can have on our lives.
I do not own a TV, but i am equally exposed to the media traps, on the internet, and i am well aware that we cannot live under a rock,  and be cut off completely from civilization...
The media controls information , and we have no say over it...

How many of you, have heard people speak in the street, of the latest episodes of a series as if it is facts, or of the latest celebrity gossip..
Do we really care?

There was a story in the news a few years ago about an actor who played Trevor in a British soap, called Eastenders.
In it, he was a wife beater. who used an iron on his on screen counterpart, called little Mo.
The actor said that people in the street came up to him wanting to beat him up, and saying to him leave this woman alone...
He had to remind everyone, please calm down, i am only acting in this series, it's not real...

The whole nation was so gripped by the drama, people had forgotten one simple rule, TV is not real.

When someone in a series wins the Lotto people kept on congratulating the actor, he kept on saying i didn't win, my character did!!!

When it comes to Twin flames, truth does not mean, to allow any kind of nonsense...
Saying this person is your twin flame, at random does not make it so...

No, you cannot pick any celebrity and convince yourself that this person is your twin or has anything to do with you,
Spirituality is not about bullshit!
It is about truth, and you cannot choose your twin flame as a matter of fact, even though we all wish they were a sexy guy, driving a fancy car.
It's not the case, i repeat you cannot choose...

Everything is about healing issues you may have about your past, and certain situation will adapt and manifest templates of your unique past...

For me, as a woman i have many issues with my father, because i did not know him in life.
He left us, when i wasn't even born, and i don't remember much about him, despite the stories that people tell of him.
My father was a famous Jazz musician, and so i have that vibration of Fame in my karmic baggage, which believe me, is not easy.
This is why i also had the opportunity to be famous myself through music and fashion...
It is not a coincidence, it is all the Universal plan for health and healing...

Nothing is about convenience either, knowledge comes through self introspection and self mastery.

When it comes to Psychology the relationship between stars and fans are a complex one, but it is mostly felt on the part of the fans. they sometimes feel that they almost know their idol,

And they do exactly that, idolize that person, as an ideal because they don't know the real human being behind the mask of Fame...
And will never have the opportunity to  really know them.
Celebrities are not your friend. They are strangers just as much as the other person on the street, Being famous does not make you a trustworthy or a good person for that matter.

There need to be a healthy boundary between fans and celebrities.
Love the Art rather than the artist, we cannot live our life in the shadow of others, because we will eventually loose our way..
Spirituality is about health, not about sickness.
We are not empty , needing attention or reassurance from others...

Yes, there are many people who feel a special connection to the star and could misconstrue that as a spiritual connection.
And who am i to say they are mot feeling something real, but in my opinion, it is fabricated.
the human mind can believe many things, it does not make it true...

The placebo effect can only last so far, and eventually the person cannot lie to themselves  any longer, they have to come face to face with the truth...

Eventually they have to realize that the relationship with a star is one sided, and unhealthy.

Unfortunately extreme fans are often people ,who have problem dealing with reality and are overly fantasist.
Those who tend to stalk celebrity are those who are fixated on the star rather than  focused on developing themselves. They feel their lives are empty...
Yes, certain fans can hope that they will one day meet their idol, they sometimes adopt the star surname for themselves, or their clothing style, but very few really believe, they would actually have an intimate relationship with their idol. thank god...
The few who do, are a minority...

Even though there is no rule ,when it comes to twin flame, we must advise caution, as the idea that a famous person can be a twin flame is very dangerous, and false...
In comparison, most people meet by accident...

The first time that i came in contact with my twin flame, i wasn't there as a spectator, i was there to work as a photographer, so i think it has always been at that level playing field for me and the universe...
It's all about healing my relationship with my famous father,,,
But my focus is never on him, or my twin but on myself...

Because it is only when you develop your own abilities and talents that you gain self esteem. the twin flame is the engine, but you must manifest your truth by investing in your own life.
If you are tailoring your endeavors according to to your twin, you are not being true to yourself...

Invest in your own heart, because this is where the truth lies.
You will loose yourself if you actually focus on the other person.
I find that it's best to make you, the priority.
You must never loose sight of what matters, you do.
You would let the connection down if you made it all about him

WHAT TO DO IF YOUR TWIN FLAME IS MARRIED OR LIVING WITH ANOTHER PERSON/
Because you focus on your own development, accept that you cannot control anything, if you live your truth, simply accept light, and love as a blessing.

IF YOUR TWIN IS NOT RECEPTIVE TO YOU, DON'T FORCE THINGS.. LOVE IS FREEDOM, AND THINGS TAKE TIME...
Your twin loves you, but his material body has not had the chance to catch up with this knowledge...

You need to accept that there is nothing wrong with you the way you are, twin flame is not about changing who you are, but about becoming your true self, and allowing love to flow into your life naturally....

You need to remember that you cannot tell anyone what to do, or convince them of anything.
You have to find the right amount of courage, to express your love. Yes in life you have to take a chance , in order to live your truth,
Love sometimes mean you need to be thought as foolish.
But there is no shame in loving someone ,or being in love, ...
Certain beliefs surrounding ownership, are very negative..
You do not own anyone...
Love is not obsession, and is not about being in pain or suffering,,,
That is not Love at all...

Of course, we all want to be reunited with the beloved, but love has many forms, and it is always mutual, you cannot force or coax anyone into loving you.

Even though spiritual love is not a choice being with that person is, and them being with you,

If you are a woman allow yourself to receive this love and let it flow ,without control,
Don't try to give it , accept it...
If you want to sing, dance or paint, do it.. Simply live your life, God has a plan, and so trust in Love..
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Love does not let anyone down because it places no boundaries or conditions.
You are in truth, because it is the energy of joy and light...

Love is a precious gift, that some of us are blessed to experience, there is many lifetimes, but love transcends time, and so we are always loved and we always love the same soul...

The soul is always divided into two halves masculine and feminine , and it can be a very confusing and challenging to put two human beings back together...
It is always complex to deal with Ego and being separate means just that... Separated

Living apart is a reality for many twins, because we are not in connection with our soul, and most of us are out of balance with our spirituality.

This word is full of noise, an it is very difficult to hold on to truth and true vibrations...
So be the change . you want to see in the world, take the twin flame vibration on board, and shine of your own bright light.
Being a twin flame start from being you...
Know the difference between truth and wishful thinking...
Know the difference between reality versus fantasy...

A lie does not have the energy to power you forward, on the contrary it will rob you of light.
You cannot live a spiritual life and be in darkness..
Don't get fixated on one specific person, and call them your own if they are not...
Do not go after Love until it knocks on your door...

There are several people that we can encounter in life and have powerful experiences with ,but they are not the twin, it does not mean they are not wonderful people we value and respect...
You simply cannot cheat this connection, you won't feel the correct resonance and will be left with a spiritual deficit.

You can't give to yourself and so it will not power you,on the contrary, you will be left depressed and drained.
Following and chasing a dream is exhausting, this is not what i am talking about here..

You cannot chase anyone or pursue someone, thinking they are your sole source of Love...
You will not gain wisdom by forcing life to give you something that is not yours to begin with.
You can kick and scream all the way to the post, if a person is not your beloved, you will know pretty fast. The twin template is unique...

At first, there is fear, and doubts, and then complete rejection of the twin...
Many twins do not like each other in the first place, they may feel a strange attraction, or simply be aware of each other,...
A twin flame is like no one you ever met before because they will push your buttons, and you may feel frustrated by their actions or words because you are not the same,

You are here to teach each other, through lessons, so it is not about being perfect, but about being true, and in balance.
Many twins experience power struggles at first, because what stands in the way is Ego.
They fight with themselves and the intellect...

After a time of realization there will be acceptance that this is how things are,
Despite many questions  remaining and being raised like what's going on with me?  I don't know what's happening or where it will lead me?

The first reaction is always disbelief and this continues on, because your intellect and reason will try to fight it.. The brain will give you plenty of ammunition for Reason , but you must think with your heart, because the truth is to feel... ...
When you feel , you know...

Remember the focus is always on yourself, not on the twin.
You are the most important person to you, so is your twin with his own self.

But you are also born to,balance those energies  male and female, it is not easy but essential to a productive life, and beneficial for both health and well being...

Twin flame is a spiritual connection, first and foremost.

Putting a plaster on something or lying to yourself is a choice, but it won't lead you to bliss, it will only cause longing and pain.

What about the physical relationship of twins?

Many twins are not even incarnated in this life, so that some, are separated by time, and by distance.
We are not sure why it happens, but it is probably because we are talking of vast expanse of time,

Most people are from different background, ethnicity, age and culture...
Even though a few thousand of twins have come together over the last 20 years, it is not guarantee to happen for most.
Even though there is huge potential for happiness, love and creation, it is not always possible for twins to be together.

The human physical reality imposes on the man and woman , and sometimes, they choose to move on with separate partners, because the twin flame template is too heavy for them
Those people are looking for an easier ride...

Most of those twins settle down in fear of drama, as they fear their own self...

Great damage stands in the way in the emotional body, that manifest low self esteem, and fear of abandonment and rejection.

.Many experience loneliness in their life, and are slow to build trust in relationship.

There is a recognition of the soul,  but also a disconnection from the body.

Many twin couples come together by accident, rather than by choice, through sexual union..,
Sexual union between twins is usually very sudden and intense,,,
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Because of the energetic unbalance between them, being apart feels safer than being together at some point, so the physical act can bring them together violently. and be very overwhelming....
Many twins , express a feeling of being apart , different, strange or lonely, as if they are from a different planet, so they long to be understood....
The union heals those feelings of loneliness...
And so many twins come from a a place of pain....

If the physical reality of Union does not manifest in the 3D life, so many twin feel unloved, unwanted and undesired, or unsatisfied...

Many blockages are released during physical union, but for those to choose tor remain wounded it can add to the lengthy reunion process...

The Union is the soul coming together as One...

Through physical union they are joined , this is why so many twin discover that they are a twin ,after sexual union.

The desire for intimacy often very strong in the male twin.
They may have felt neglected, or dissatisfied in everyday life, it leaves them wondering is there anything more...
It can manifest in negative patterns forming and can lead them into destructive behaviors, as the sexual energy is not being released the proper way, it can unbalance the male and let them feeling in constant desire for gratification.
Female twin often feel vulnerable during intimacy if they have had any bereavement or pain in their life...

The male twin longs to be with the other self, physically, from the root chakra, in comparison the female twin longs for spiritual connection.

The man must ascend, and the woman  must descend.

Both must learn from each other, and heal one another

The woman makes the man more spiritual, and the man makes the woman more grounded, and piratical.
Both twins go through those developments during their first encounter, and so on..

The merging only happen during physical connection, and is not always possible for all.

It is a commitment from both twins, on the physical level , to manifest Oneness...
Their mission is always to manifest Love...

This is the reality of the twin flame template, however spiritual ,it is not a fantasy....

Twin flame Bliss....

This twin flame connection is so amazing ,and at the same time incomprehensible, at times...
I can't control anything that i am feeling, and because it's the end of another month. The energy has shifted again...
Before, i felt loved and i enjoyed all of the energy that it gave me, and the creativity that flowed through me..
I responded by going to museums, painting, taking pictures, expressing myself through the visual image,and it made me grow spiritually, as a person and artist...
I became one with life and Art, and it was all flowing from above, like rain...

But i feel,for the first time, that i truly love my twin flame...
And it's engaging my heart and also my solar plexus...
I don't think it, i feel it...
It is coming from within my heart...

It is like if fear has been released and will continue to be removed over the next few weeks ,and the month of July. and more light gets generated .from those two chakras... Solar and heart...
It feels as if my flame has been lit, and i feel this little fire dancing in my heart, and it makes me smile...

And i realize that i have been carrying fear with me for a very long time, too long...
I am  not sure what it is was, i was afraid of...
But i understand the power of love, the power it has, to heal and illuminate parts of my soul that remained in the dark.
And for me it took a  long while...
I think Love wants to shine light, and expose  all, what i didn't understand, and what hurt me...

I feel a deep sense of gratitude and i don't know why. and also i feel thankful and yet again i don't know why.
I feel like it is as if i have turned a corner, and i will always look for the truth to guide me..
I never will return to that place of darkness..
I will never have to live in that lie again...

No one is able to take this from me, the truth sets you free, why does it mean so much to me?
To have everything in transparency, seems to be essential to spiritual life...
you cannot lie to yourself or cheat your connection to Soul...
And it is at the center of every twin flame template...
The nucleus in a way...

My twin makes me understand the nature of Love, nothing is secretive or hidden...
I feel that i can trust him, and let go of fear and control.
This was hindering my love for him, i did not trust him...
I think i was trying too hard...
But i am not sure, what has changed exactly...

Perhaps, Fear and control are the two enemies of happiness...
How long have i lived with these energies ,unaware of their presence?

I have many questions, but i trust that life will unfold and give me answers.
On the spiritual path of the twin flame, i feel a certain sense of completion ,this month...
This is the feeling from doing the right thing, but it's coming from my twin.
Perhaps there were things he was afraid to do, but he built the courage to do them, and it benefits us both...
It's a very strange and beautiful connection...

Spirit has always guided me since the beginning, and sometimes i have lost patience, but finally it's like if something has sunk in...
I feel a sense of pride, that my twin is so kind, and also such a lover of Peace...
I think it reflects onto me, and onto my life also...

This month has brought many challenges, but also a lot of knowledge and acceptance of simple facts.
I have been healed, and also prevented from harm as well...
And so i feel this love for him , now so new as if it's the first love i have ever felt.

It feels like a shoot from a new branch, that i cannot yet understand....
But it's strong, but absolutely new, as if it just sprang out of the ground...

Suddenly i felt it, i love him simply for who he is...
And it is sort of liberating and wonderful...
I don't have to be someone i am not, being myself is like standing on a balanced scale.
I am on one side and he is on the other...
And i don't worry of how we will meet or if we will, i am letting everything unfold naturally. I am letting Spirit in charge..
I am not forcing anything, as if i am simply watching myself ...
Learning and growing from it, becoming more loving,, more understanding...

My twin makes me feel good about myself,,  it's like if the mirror reflects not only what i want to see but the true picture ,without trying to hide anything..
Just like the true space between us...
Like clearing away dead leaves...
Everything is out to dry in the sun...
I feel that the spiritual bond with my twin evolves, and i can't really stop or control where it will go but i am not scared anymore...

I have gained trust in him, and our connection, something i didn't have before...
I trust him, and without trust, love is not possible, so i love him also...

But i have to ask, why does it feel so good, when it should hurt?  It is like what is seen and unseen are two different things,
The Universe only responds  to positivity and Order, and is indifferent to Chaos...
There is no drama...

The Universe never manifest it, only human beings and our mind are capable of it. we create fear and darkness without realizing it...
We end up living in those spheres that keeps us prisoners, without love we cannot experience freedom.
Perhaps this is why they say we create our own reality...

I have never seen anyone talk about twin flame Bliss, or a state of bliss when it comes to twin template. but this is where it leads me...
Not just the end of a suffering, or the lessening of pain, but in its place a small shoot., with strong roots, the beginning of Bliss...